Behind the Fridge

by Chalmerisian Hard Problem, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium

Two weeks after they took the cataract out of her right eye, Bev Treloar could still change the colour of the shop by blinking.

With the right eye shut, Magill Road Paint & Hardware was the shop she had worked in for nineteen years. The swatch wall ran from cream to bone to a shade the rep called Antique Lace, and the afternoon came in through the front window the colour of weak tea. With the left eye shut, somebody had hosed the place down. The whites were white. Antique Lace was nearly blue. The sign over the tinting machine, which she had always thought of as orange, was red, and had presumably been red since Darren put it up.

The surgeon, a young man who had called her Beverley throughout, said the brain would settle it once the second eye was done. The second eye was booked for the ninth of March. Until then she kept the drops in her apron pocket, the antibiotic in the green-topped bottle and the steroid in the white, four times a day, five minutes apart, and at night she taped a plastic shield over the new eye so she would not rub it in her sleep. Darren had stuck a note to the till: BEV: DROPS 2PM.

"Doesn't matter what your eyes are doing," Darren said, the first morning she was back. He patted the spectro. "That's the beauty of it."

The spectro was a grey box the size of a toaster, with a round port on its face like a porthole. You held a sample flat against the port, it flashed, and the screen gave you three numbers and a recipe: which base, which tinters, how many shots of each. It had been on the counter for six years. Before it, Bev had matched by eye, with a fan deck and a daylight lamp, and had been good at it, and had stopped being good at it at some point she could not date. She had put it down to the lamp.

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Mr Kyriakou came in on the Thursday, at the worst of the afternoon. It was thirty-nine degrees on the radio and the door let in a slab of heat each time it opened. He was a small man in a short-sleeved business shirt, buttoned to the neck, and he carried a bread bag folded over twice. He put it on the counter and opened it as if it might break.

Inside was a piece of plasterboard about the size of a playing card. One face was painted yellow. The edges were rough where a knife had gone through, and white gypsum dust had collected in the corners of the bag.

"Can you match this?"

"Should be able to. Where's it from?"

"The kitchen. Behind the fridge." He had an accent that had been in Adelaide a long time and had worn smooth in places. "The old fridge died. In January, with the heat. The compressor. The new one is narrower." He held up his hands, palms in, close together, and then moved them a little apart. "So now there is a stripe. Down the wall. Where the old one stood."

"And you cut this out of the stripe?"

"No, no. From the back. Low down, where the new one covers. Nobody sees the hole."

Bev turned the piece over. The back was grey paper with a brand name printed on it in a typeface nobody had used for a long time. She brushed the dust off the painted face with her thumb and held it to the port of the spectro. It flashed. The screen gave her the three numbers, and under them a recipe in a base she knew well: a pale yellow, a touch of oxide, a breath of black.

"That's easy," she said. "That's a straightforward colour. You doing the stripe, or the whole wall?"

"The whole kitchen. Eleni picked this. My wife. In eighty-seven." He said it the way people give a postcode. "I want it like she had it."

Bev looked at the chip. She looked at it with her left eye, and then with her right. With the left it was a soft butter yellow. With the right it was clearer and colder, a primrose, with something almost green at the edge of it.

"Here's the thing," she said. "This bit's been behind a fridge for, what, how long?"

"Since eighty-seven. The old fridge came with the kitchen."

"Then this is the colour that came out of the tin, near enough. The rest of your wall won't be. Thirty-odd years of sun and cooking, it'll have gone. Usually a bit duller, a bit browner. That's why you've got a stripe." She put the chip down on the bread bag. "If I mix this, and you paint the whole kitchen in it, it'll be the colour she bought. It won't be the colour of the kitchen."

Mr Kyriakou looked at the chip for some time.

"So which one is it?" he said.

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Darren had a handheld unit for site work, a fat grey thing like a computer mouse with a strap, which he used for strata jobs where the committee wanted the stairwells to match. Bev was not allowed to drive until the eye clinic cleared her, so at half past five Mr Kyriakou drove her, in a white Camry with a cardboard sunshade folded on the back seat, up the Parade and left into a street of single-fronted cottages in Kensington. He drove at exactly the speed limit, leaning forward.

The kitchen was at the back of the house, down a hall that smelled of floor polish. It had a laminate benchtop in a speckled brown, a gas cooker, a calendar from a Greek bakery on Henley Beach Road turned to February, and on the drainer two mugs, one of them dry and with a bloom of dust inside it. The fridge was new and white and still had the energy-rating sticker on its door. Beside it, between the fridge and the pantry door, ran the stripe.

It was about a hand's width across and went from the skirting board up to the height of a man's shoulder, where it stopped in a straight line. Above the line, and on either side of it, the wall was the colour of the wall.

Bev shut her left eye. Through the new right eye the stripe was a plain lemon yellow, almost loud, and the wall around it had gone grey and tired, the colour of the pages at the back of an old paperback. It looked as if a poster had been taken down.

She shut her right eye. Through the left the wall was warm. The stripe was still there, but it was only a little lighter than its surroundings, and at the top, where the line crossed, she had to look for it.

She opened and closed them a few more times, one and then the other.

"What are you doing?" said Mr Kyriakou.

"Comparing. I had a cataract out of this one." She pointed. "The other one's still got it in. They see different things."

"Which one is right?"

"The doctor says the new one."

He nodded slowly, as if this was the kind of thing doctors said.

"Can you see it?" he said. "The line."

"Yes."

"Effie sees it from the door. My granddaughter. She came on Sunday and she stood there," he pointed to the doorway into the hall, "and she said, Pappou, it looks like something has been taken down." He went to the stripe and put his face close to it, almost touching, and moved his head from side to side. "I have to put my nose on it. The optometrist says I have cataracts, next year maybe. I said, next year I'll be eighty-two."

Bev unclipped the handheld from its strap. She laid it flat on the stripe, at the height of her chest, and pressed the button. It flashed and beeped. She laid it on the wall just to the left of the stripe, and it flashed and beeped. She took readings by the window, where the afternoon came in over the sink; above the cooker, where the paint had a faint tack to it under her fingers; by the hall door; and up high, over the line where the old fridge had stopped. The unit beeped the same short beep for each of them.

She sat at the kitchen table, on the chair that did not have a cushion on it, and scrolled through the numbers. Mr Kyriakou stood behind her and looked at the screen, which he could not have read without his glasses, and did not fetch his glasses.

"Stripe against the wall next to it is about six and a half," she said. "Anything over one or two, most people can see it. So that's why Effie sees it."

"And me?"

"Your eyes are taking some of the blue out. Like my old one." She scrolled. "But here's the funny thing. The wall's not one colour either. By the window it's paler. Over the stove it's gone browner, that's the cooking. Window against stove is near enough three. If I matched any one bit of it and you did the whole room, it'd be wrong somewhere."

"Wrong how?"

"Wrong against the bit next to it. Not wrong against anything else."

He pulled out the cushioned chair and sat on it. On the table between them was a fruit bowl with two lemons in it and a set of keys.

"She painted it herself," he said. "With a roller on a broom handle. She had one of those caps, you know, newspaper. Folded." He made a shape over his head with both hands. "I was at work. I came home and the kitchen was yellow."

Bev waited.

"So the tin colour is the one she chose," he said. "And the wall colour is the one we had."

"That's about it."

"And the one Effie sees is not the one I see."

"No."

He sat back. Through the window over the sink the light had begun to go gold, and the wall by the window went gold with it, and the stripe too, and for a moment, even to Bev's new eye, the two were closer than they had been.

"Make the stripe like the wall," he said. "Just there. So Effie doesn't see it."

"Not the whole room?"

"Not the whole room." He picked up one of the lemons and put it down again. "It's a big job, the whole room. I'd have to take all the things down."

Bev took four more readings from the wall at the edge of the stripe, two on each side, as close as she could get the unit without its lip crossing the line, and told the handheld to average them.

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In the morning she plugged the handheld into the spectro and pulled the average across. The screen thought about it and offered her a recipe in the same base as before, with the yellow cut back, more of the oxide, and a fraction more black. She ran a litre. The tinting machine whirred and clicked through its nozzles in turn, and the colorants went into the base in thin bright ropes that told you nothing about what they would make. She hammered the lid on and put the can in the shaker, and the shaker filled the back of the shop with its noise for three minutes.

She did a drawdown on a white card, pulling the wet paint into a flat film with the bar, and dried it with the hair dryer they kept under the counter for the purpose. Then she held it to the port. The spectro compared the card against the reading from the wall and gave her a number.

0.6.

"Beautiful," said Darren, going past with a box of sash brushes. "That's a match."

The light booth sat on the end of the counter: a grey box open at the front, with a switch on its side for three kinds of light. Daylight, shop fluoro, and one the rep had labelled Home, which was meant to be an ordinary bulb in an ordinary room. On daylight and fluoro the spectro said the match held. On Home it said 1.4, which was still fine, which nobody standing in a kitchen would see.

Bev put the drawdown in the booth on daylight. Then, beside it, she put Eleni Kyriakou's chip, out of its bread bag, the one from behind the fridge.

With her right eye the two were plainly different: the chip clean and lemony, the card a step down into grey, the way the wall had been beside the stripe. With her left eye the difference closed most of the way. The chip was a little brighter, that was all. She could imagine someone with older eyes than hers standing in front of them and calling them the same.

She switched the booth to Home. Both of them went warm. She switched it back.

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Mr Kyriakou came in a little after eleven, before the heat. He had a clean bread bag in his shirt pocket, folded flat.

"Here you are," said Bev, and put the can on the counter with the drawdown taped to the lid. "That's your wall. Do the stripe and feather it out a bit onto the old paint either side. Two coats. Give it a day and Effie won't find it."

He looked at the card on the lid and nodded, though it could not have meant much to him in the shop's light. Then he looked at the chip, which she had put back in its old bag and laid beside the can.

"You keep that?" he said.

"It's yours."

He unfolded the clean bag from his pocket, eased the old one into it, and folded the top over twice. Then he did not pick it up.

"Can you make a little one of this one?" he said. "The tin colour. A small tin."

"A sample pot? Two-fifty mil?"

"A small one. Yes."

She did not ask what it was for. She took the chip out again, read it a second time to be sure, and ran a sample pot from the first recipe, the pale yellow, the touch of oxide, the breath of black. The machine clicked through the same nozzles in less time. She shook it by hand because the shaker was overkill for a pot that size, and she did a drawdown of that too, out of habit, and left it drying on the counter.

He paid for both in cash, with the exact money, coins counted out from a small leather purse.

"Thank you," he said. "For coming to look."

"That's all right."

He put the sample pot in his shirt pocket, where the bread bag had been, and it pulled the pocket down at one side. He took the can by its wire handle and the chip in its bag, and went out into the morning, and through the front window she watched him put both of them on the passenger seat of the Camry and buckle the belt across the can.

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The drawdown of the tin colour was dry by one. Bev picked it up off the counter and held it to the window.

With her right eye it was primrose, cool and clean, the yellow it must have been on the lid of the tin, to a woman in a newspaper cap with a roller on a broom handle, in 1987.

She shut her right eye and looked at the card with her left. Butter. The yellow it was to a man of eighty-one who had to put his nose on the wall to find the line. In nine days the surgeon would take out the left lens too, and the brain would settle it, and both eyes would agree, and she would match by the spectro like everyone else and be right.

She stood there with the card held up to the light, one eye shut, until Darren called out from the back that it was two o'clock.

THE END

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