Five Impressions

by Palmistry, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium

J. Hebditch. Right hand. 12 Oct. 1961.

Arthur kept the kit in a Golden Virginia tin: a two-inch rubber roller from Sweetland's the printers in Princes Street, a tube of black block-printing ink, a square of window glass with the edges taped, and a rag. He laid them out at the end of the canteen table, between the brown sauce and the urn, and the girls from the sewing room watched him squeeze a worm of ink onto the glass as if he were about to do a trick with it.

"You never said it'd be messy," said Joan Hebditch.

"It washes off. Water-based."

"Mr Hendy'll have me if I get black on a pair of kid."

"Then wash before you go back up."

She sat. She was nineteen, on the prix-seam machines two floors above the cutting room, and she had a ring on the third finger of her left hand that she kept turning with her thumb. Arthur was thirty and had been cutting gloves at Hendy & Sons since he came out of the army. He knew hands the way a cutter knows them: round the knuckles, in inches. Hers was a six and a half, long in the finger for the size. He could have cut her a pair without the tape.

"Both hands first," he said. "Just to look."

She put them on the oilcloth, palms up. The right had a hard yellow place at the side of the forefinger where the cloth ran under it all day, and a pinprick scab on the pad of the middle finger. The left was softer and had the ring.

He read them the way the book said, three great lines first. The heart line ran high under the fingers and curved up at its end towards the forefinger, to the mount of Jupiter. The head line began tucked against the life line, the two of them running joined for a good half-inch before they parted. The life line itself was deep and swung wide round the ball of the thumb. The palm was long, and so were the fingers. A water hand, the book would call it.

"Well?" she said. "Is it going to last?"

Everyone in the canteen knew what it was. Ron Bartlett worked in the dye sheds across the yard and came to the gate at half past five with his hands blue to the wrist, and he had been seen in the Butchers Arms on a Thursday with a girl from Sherborne. Arthur had seen him there himself.

"I don't read it," Arthur said. "I read you. Heart line curved like that, rising to the forefinger, you love with your eyes open, and you love hard. You'll want things to be proper. Head line starting tight on the life line: you were a careful child, you look before you leap, you asked your mother first."

"Everyone asks their mother."

"Not everyone." He turned her right hand a little to the light. "And there's hardly any fate line. See, here, where it ought to come up the middle from the wrist. A thread. Barely there."

"What's that mean, then? I haven't got a fate?"

"It means nobody's written it yet. Including you."

She pulled her hand back. "That's a swizz."

"That's why I'm going to take a print." He rolled the ink on the glass until it went from glossy to velvet, the way the man at Sweetland's had shown him, then took her right wrist and rolled the palm, fingers and all. She giggled at the cold of it. He laid a sheet of cartridge paper on a folded copy of the Western Gazette, set her hand down, and pressed along the back of each finger and into the hollow of the palm with his thumbs so the middle would take.

When he lifted it off there was her hand, white lines on black, the creases showing up as the only part of her the ink had missed.

"Come back in ten years," he said, "and we'll do it again and see what you've written."

She went up to the sink. He wrote her name on the back of the sheet in pencil, and the date, and then he sat for a while with his tea going cold, wondering whether he had seen in that heart line a woman who would make a marriage proper by main force, or whether he had only seen Ron Bartlett in the Butchers Arms on a Thursday, and given it to her as a line.

J. Bartlett. Right hand. 9 Mar. 1970.

She came to the house in Eastland Road with the envelope herself. He had given it to her at the wedding in a manila envelope, the print inside, and she had kept it in the bureau with the insurance.

"Ten years is next year," Arthur said.

"I'm not waiting for next year."

She had the two boys at school and was back at Hendy's three days a week, on outwork the other two with a machine on the kitchen table. Hendy's had gone on short time in January. Everyone said it was the imports, the cheap gloves from the Far East, and everyone said it would pick up, and nobody in the cutting room believed it. Arthur had his sleeves rolled and a roast in the oven, and he cleared the dining table and put the Gazette down.

Her right hand had changed in the way hands change. The callus at the forefinger had gone from yellow to grey and spread. There was a white seam of scar along the side of the thumb where a needle had gone through in 1964; she told him the date without being asked. The palm was broader. The fingers were the same.

He rolled the ink and took the print and laid the new one beside the old.

"There," he said. "Look."

She looked. The heart line was the same line. The head line still began tied to the life line, still parted at the same place. But up the middle of the palm, from just above the wrist, a line ran now where there had been a thread. It was not deep. It stopped well short of the middle finger. But it was there on the paper in white, and in 1961 it had not been.

"That's the fate line," Joan said.

"That's the fate line."

"So I've got one now."

"You've started one."

She sat back. "I want to ask you something and I want you to tell me straight."

He knew what it would be. They always circled back to it, sooner or later, the ones who came twice.

"My mum was fifty-one," she said. "And her life line, I looked at her hands in the hospital, it was short. It stopped about here." She drew a fingernail across her own palm, halfway round the thumb. "Mine's longer. Is that—does that mean I'll get longer than she did?"

"No."

"No, I won't?"

"No, it doesn't mean that. The life line's not how long, Joanie. It never was. It's how you run. How much go you've got and how you spend it." He put his finger on the print, on the deep curve round the ball of the thumb. "That says you've got a lot of go and you spend it all, every day, and you'll be tired at night and up again at six. That's all it says. It doesn't say a number. No hand does. I've looked at hundreds and none of them ever told me a number, and if one did I'd not believe it."

"Your book says—"

"I know what the old books say. They're wrong about that and I won't have it."

She looked at him a while, then at the two prints. She asked him to write the date on the back, and he did, J. Bartlett, and she watched him do it.

At the door she said, "Ron says you fancy me."

"Ron's got blue hands."

She laughed, and went down the path with the folder under her coat because it had started to rain.

J. Bartlett. Right and left. 20 Nov. 1981.

Hendy & Sons shut on the last Friday in October. The cutters were given a fortnight's money and a pair of gloves each in their own size, and Arthur, who was fifty, took his gloves home and put them in a drawer and did not wear them.

It was Joan's kitchen table this time, in the council house on the Westfield estate, with the boys gone out and Ron on nights at the tannery that had taken him on. She had a roll of brown paper on the table and a dressmaker's pattern weighted down with tins, and she cleared it away in two movements to make room.

"I've taken the shop," she said, before he had his coat off. "Middle Street. Alterations and repairs. Zips, hems, turn your collars. There's nobody in the town does it properly."

"I know there isn't."

"So you'll do my hand."

"I'll do both of them."

She gave him a look. Twice before it had only been the right.

"The left's what you were born with," he said. "The right's what you've done with it. I want to see the two side by side."

He rolled the left first. On the paper it came out narrower than the right, the fingers straighter, the skin unmarked. Up the middle from the wrist ran a faint thread, broken twice, petering out short of the centre: the 1961 fate line, near enough, as if her left hand had kept a copy of the girl.

Then the right. He pressed it down on top of the Gazette, his thumbs in the hollow, and lifted it.

The fate line on the right had grown. It did not run up from the middle of the wrist now but swung in from the outer edge of the palm, from the mount of Luna under the little finger side, and climbed in a firm diagonal to stop just under the middle finger.

"There," he said. "That's new."

"What's it mean when it comes in from the side like that?"

"The book says it means your way in the world depends on other people. On the public. Folk coming through the door."

"Well, it does," said Joan. "That's the whole idea."

And there it was again, the thing that had sat with him since 1961 in the canteen with his tea going cold. She had told him about Middle Street before he got his coat off. He had known since the closure that she would do something, because he knew her. Was it the line he was reading, swinging in off the mount of Luna, or was it the roll of brown paper and the tins and the look on her face? He looked from one to the other and could not make them come apart. "Arthur?"

"It's a good line," he said. "Deep. It'll carry weight."

She pinned the left and the right together at the corner with one of her dressmaking pins, and wrote the date on the back herself.

J. Bartlett. Right hand. 2 Jun. 1993.

She did not bring the folder. She came into the shop in Middle Street where he was helping on Saturdays, cutting linings at the back bench because his eyes were still good and his hands still steady, and she stood at the other side of the bench and said, "You read Ron's hand once."

"In the Butchers Arms. In nineteen sixty-something. For a pint."

"What did you see?"

Ron had died in April, in the bath, at fifty-three. His heart, the doctor said. The funeral had been at the crematorium on Lyde Road and Arthur had stood at the back.

"Joan."

"I want to know if you saw it. If it was there. If it was in his hands and you saw it and you never said."

He put the shears down on the lining.

"There wasn't anything to see," he said. "There never is. I don't read that. Nobody can read that in a hand, not me, not Cheiro, not the woman on the pier at Weymouth. I read him a big heart line, all over the place, and a short temper and a good laugh, and I told him he'd want a wife who'd keep him in order, and he said he'd got one. That's what I saw. A man. Not that."

"But if the lines are going to change. If you can see a fate line come in. Then why can't you see the other thing come?"

"Because the lines are you living. They're not you stopping."

She stood with her hand on the bench. He did not take it. After a while she turned it over herself, palm up, on the cut lining, and he looked because she had put it there to be looked at.

The heart line was the same line it had been in the canteen. Curved, rising to the forefinger. It had not broken. Nothing had grown across it. If anything it was deeper, the crease of thirty-odd years of the same folding.

"It's not changed," she said.

"No."

"I thought it would have. I thought there'd be something."

"You loved him with your eyes open," Arthur said. "That's what it said when you were nineteen. That's still what it says."

She closed the hand.

The print was taken on the Monday, at her kitchen table on the Westfield estate, and in it the heart line came out the same as it had in 1961, line for line, and she pinned it to the others without a word.

A. Keedwell. Right hand. 14 Oct. 2003.

The flat at Abbey Manor had one good chair, by the window, and a kitchenette where he was not to use the oven after six in case he fell asleep. Joan came on Tuesdays, after she had shut the shop for the dinner hour, which she now did because the girl she had taken on could manage till two.

She had the folder under her arm. She had the Golden Virginia tin as well, which he had not seen in years and had assumed lost.

"Where'd you get that?"

"You gave it to me. When you moved in here. You said you'd not need it."

"I did say that."

She put the window glass on the tray table and squeezed out ink from a new tube, because the old one had dried to a stick, and rolled it until it went from glossy to velvet. She had watched him do it four times. She did it right.

"Give us your hand."

"Joan, I'm not—"

"You've never had yours done. Forty-two years. Give us your hand."

He held it out. It shook. It had shaken for two years now, a fine fast trembling that stopped when he gripped something and started again when he let go. He had cut gloves with that hand for thirty-odd years, and linings for her for twenty, and now he could not always get a key in the door. Neither of them said anything about it. She took his wrist the way he had taken hers, firm, and the shaking went still between her fingers, and she rolled the ink across his palm and up each finger to the tip.

She had brought a Western Gazette and a sheet of cartridge paper. She set his hand down and pressed along the back of each finger with her thumbs and into the hollow of the palm, so the middle would take, and lifted it off.

It was a big hand on the paper. A cutter's hand, square-palmed, the fingers short and thick, the mount below the thumb high and full. An earth hand, the book would have called it. Plain and practical, whatever the book said. The fate line went up the middle from the wrist, straight as a rule, and stopped just under the middle finger. The heart line was straight too, and lay low. The head line was long.

"Go on, then," he said. "Read it."

"I can't read hands."

"You've watched me do it four times."

She bent over the paper. He watched her look, and saw what she did: she looked at the print, and then she looked at him, at the window, at the shaking hand on his knee with the ink drying on it, and then back at the print.

"Life line's good," she said. "Deep. Goes all the way round."

"That's not how long—"

"I know what it is," Joan said. "It's how much go you've got. You've got a lot of go and you spend it all and you're tired at night. You told me." She moved her finger up the middle. "Fate line. Straight up. You did one thing your whole life and you did it properly and you didn't fuss."

"That's not off the print, that is."

"Isn't it?"

"You're reading me."

"I'm reading this." She tapped the paper. "And I've known you since I was nineteen. You tell me which."

He could not. He had never been able to. He looked at the print, and at her, and said nothing.

She took a pencil from her bag and turned the sheet over and wrote on the back, in capitals, the way she wrote the tickets for the alterations: his name, right hand, and the date. Then she opened the folder and laid it on top of the others, on top of the girl in the canteen and the two hands pinned at the corner and the heart line that had not changed, and closed the folder over them.

He did not go to the sink. He sat with his hand open on his knee, palm up, trembling a little the way it did, the ink drying black everywhere but in the creases, and he left it there.

THE END

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