Hugo Ledesma weighs grain trucks for a cooperative on the Argentine pampas and never rounds a number. On Sundays he plays for Atlético Arrieta, and this week his coach has given him one opponent to follow wherever he goes: Garay, an eighteen-year-old winger from the next town along the railway, and three hundred and ninety-nine video clips of him. Hugo numbers every way the boy beats a man. He climbs a silo to film the boy training, and before the match he walks over and tells him. Told in sections headed by clip numbers and minutes of play, this story by Bielsian Intensity Simulacrum follows a careful man's preparation into an afternoon that has its own ideas about where to look.
by Bielsian Intensity, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium
Clip 1
The boy receives the ball on the left touchline with his back to the play. Number eleven, red shirt, white shorts, socks rolled down to the ankle. The defender behind him is a heavy man in green who arrives late, as heavy men do, and the boy has already gone: the sole of his right boot draws the ball back, the hip turns, and the ball goes past the green man on the side where his weight is not. Six seconds. Whoever is holding the phone is laughing. At the end the picture swings up into a February sky and the top of a eucalyptus, and stops.
Hugo Ledesma watched it four times. Then he turned to a clean page of the notebook in which he kept tare weights and wrote: 1. Sole back, turn to the outside. Defender came from behind. Defender was late. He underlined late.
The weighbridge
Ibarra had brought the memory stick on the Monday, at a quarter past seven in the morning, when the first truck of the day was standing on the plate with its engine running and the driver leaning out of the cab to read the display for himself.
"Forty-four thousand three hundred and twenty," said Hugo through the window.
"Round it up."
"It is forty-four thousand three hundred and twenty," said Hugo, and printed the ticket, and the driver took it and pulled out of the yard with his maize towards the road to the ports at San Lorenzo, where it would be weighed again by men who also did not round.
Ibarra put the stick on the counter beside the rubber stamp. He was a tall man who vaccinated cattle for a living and had coached Atlético Arrieta for three seasons without a peso, and he stayed on his feet, because the office had one chair.
"Garay," he said. "From Unión. Everything there is of him. The club's own video from last season, the video from the Copa, what the parents put on the internet. Three hundred and ninety-nine pieces. Some are bad. Watch the bad ones as well."
"All of them?"
"You are going to be with him for ninety minutes. Where he goes, you go. If he goes to drink water, you go to the water. If he goes to the toilet, you wait at the door. A man who is going to stand that close to another man for an hour and a half should know him. It is a question of respect." He looked out at the next truck turning in from the road. "It is also a question of not losing."
Clip 77
From the club's own camera, high in a stand and a long way off. Unión attacking from left to right. The boy is not on the ball. He walks, walks, towards the centre circle, while the full-back who should be with him watches the ball, and when the ball is switched the boy is standing in a space that did not exist four seconds earlier, and the full-back is turning his head like a man who has heard his name called in a crowd.
Hugo wrote: 77. Not a dribble. He walks. Nobody marks a man who walks. He read it over and crossed out the last sentence, because it was a conclusion, and he had seen seventy-seven clips out of three hundred and ninety-nine and had no right yet to conclusions. In its place he wrote: Watch his walking.
Wednesday
By the Wednesday he had watched two hundred and sixty of them, most more than once, in the weighbridge office between trucks, with the laptop on the counter and the sound turned off. He had counted eleven ways in which the boy went past a man. He gave them numbers, not names, because a name would have been his own invention and a number was only what he had seen.
Form 1: the sole back and the turn to the outside. Form 4: the dead stop, with the defender running on past the ball. Form 7: the shoulder dropped to the left and the ball taken to the right with the outside of the right foot. The boy did form 7 so often that in the clips from the Copa the defenders were already leaning to their right before he moved, and he did it anyway, and they went anyway. Form 9 Hugo had seen twice. The boy shaped to pass inside with his left foot, and did not pass, and in the half-second in which the defender's eyes followed a pass that had not happened, he was gone.
He watched the boy's goals, which were eight, and the boy's mistakes, which were more than eight. He watched the boy lose the ball and watched his face after he had lost it, which did not change. He watched clip 203, filmed by somebody's mother through a wire fence, in which for forty seconds nothing happened except that the boy knelt and retied his boot, and he watched it to the end, because Ibarra had said the bad ones as well, and because at the thirty-first second the boy looked up from the lace at the defender standing over him and Hugo wanted to know what he was looking at.
He was looking at the man's feet.
At midday Mirta came across from the house with milanesa in a tin and found him in front of the laptop.
"Is that the Garay boy? Rubén Garay's son, from the tyre place?"
"I don't know whose son he is."
"All those clips and you don't know whose son he is."
"It isn't in the clips," said Hugo.
She put the tin down beside the stamp and stood behind his chair and watched the boy go past three men in a row, and said, "Ay, but he plays lovely," and Hugo said, "Seven, seven, two," and wrote it down.
Thursday
On Thursdays the cooperative sent Hugo eleven kilometres along the railway to Unión's town, to cover the weighbridge at the plant there on the other man's day off. The plant had four silos and a grain drier, and on its far side, past the railway line and a wire fence, lay the pitch where Unión trained on Tuesdays and Thursdays from six.
Ibarra had not asked him to go up. On the Monday, at the door of the office, Ibarra had only said, "Thursdays you're at the plant in Unión, no?" and Hugo had said yes, and Ibarra had said nothing more, and the nothing more was the request.
At a quarter to six Hugo climbed the outside ladder of silo three. He had the key to the cage at the foot of it because it was his job to read the level gauges. At the top he stood on the catwalk with the evening wind coming at him off the fields, where the soya was going in, and the pitch below him was a green stamp on brown paper. He filmed for an hour and ten minutes, with the phone zoomed in until the picture shook. Thirteen clips. On the laptop that night he numbered them 400 to 412.
Before he climbed, he had looked. On the Wednesday night he had read the regulations of the league, which ran to forty-one pages, and the words silo and catwalk and telephone did not appear in them. He had read them the way he read the display when a driver said round it up. Then he had climbed anyway, and on the way down, with his hands on the cold rungs, he found that the forty-one pages weighed less than he had expected.
In the thirteen clips the boy did nothing. He passed short and jogged. He laughed at something the goalkeeper said. He took a free kick into the wall. For a minute and a half he lay on his back on the grass with his boots in the air while the others did sprints. Under each clip Hugo wrote Nothing. Under 412 he wrote Nothing. Why nothing?
Sunday, twenty to four
Arrieta's ground had a stand of eight rows, a eucalyptus behind the far goal, and, over the roofs of the houses on the railway side, the silos of the cooperative, Hugo's own, which could be seen from the centre circle. Unión were warming up at the eucalyptus end. Hugo walked down the touchline in his green shirt and stopped at the corner flag and asked the nearest red shirt for Garay.
The boy came over. He was smaller than in the clips. He was eighteen, with the beginning of a moustache that he had not yet decided about.
"I am Ledesma," said Hugo. "I am going to mark you today. Before that I have to tell you something, and I ask you to let me finish. On Thursday I was on top of silo three at the cooperative in your town with my telephone, and I filmed your training for an hour and ten minutes. There is no rule against it. I looked. I am telling you because I am going to be standing very close to you all afternoon, and I did not want to be standing there with that."
"I know," said the boy. "I waved at you."
Hugo had watched the thirteen clips four times each. He had not seen a wave. He had been watching the feet.
"Twice," said the boy, and ran back to the warm-up.
At the bench Ibarra was writing the team sheet on his knee. He did not look up.
"What did you tell him?"
"All of it."
Ibarra nodded once, as a man nods at a ticket that shows the weight he expected, and went on writing.
Minute 9
The boy knelt to retie his boot by the halfway line. Hugo stood over him, two metres off, his weight even on both feet, because of clip 203. The boy looked up at his feet, saw nothing worth seeing, and finished the knot.
Minute 23
The boy left the left wing and drifted across the whole width of the pitch to the right, and Hugo went with him. Then the boy walked to his own bench for water, and Hugo walked with him and stood beside the bench while he drank. Somebody in the third row shouted, "Ledesma, marry him!" and the stand laughed, and Gariboldi, Arrieta's free centre-back, thirty-nine years old and the only outfield man on the side with nobody to mark, shouted across to Hugo that he had the back covered, and to stay where he was.
Minute 34
Form 7. Hugo had seen it sixty-one times. The boy dropped his left shoulder, and Hugo did not lean, and the ball came off the outside of the boy's right boot into the space where Hugo was already standing. He took it and, without a touch to settle it, hit it forward between Unión's midfield and their back line to Benítez, who turned and ran.
Nothing came of it. Benítez's cross was cleared. But on the way back the boy jogged at Hugo's shoulder and said, without looking at him, "Bien," and Hugo found that he was pleased, and that the being pleased was a little disloyal, and he did not know to whom.
Half-time
Ibarra spoke to the midfield about the distances between them, which had grown, and to the two strikers about Unión's left-back, who was slow to turn, and to Hugo he said nothing at all. Hugo sat on the bench under the coat hooks with a bottle of water and counted. Eleven times the boy had received the ball. Four times he had tried to go past. Once he had gone.
Gariboldi sat down beside him and took off his left boot and shook a stone out of it.
"He's not tired," said Gariboldi.
"No."
"When he stops running, shout. I can see the ball and I can see the space. I can't see the both of you as well." He put the boot back on and pulled the lace hard, twice. "I'm thirty-nine. I've only got the one neck."
Minute 58
Form 2. Hugo had seen it nineteen times and still could not stop it, because form 2 was simply the boy being quicker over three metres than a thirty-four-year-old who weighed grain for a living. The boy went past him. Gariboldi came across from the middle, unhurried, the way a man crosses his own kitchen in the dark, and put the ball into the stand. That was what the free man was for. The stand applauded both of them.
Minute 70
Form 9. Hugo had seen it only twice, but he had watched those two clips more often than any of the others, at the weighbridge with a truck waiting on the plate, frame by frame. The boy shaped to pass inside with his left foot. The eyes of the defender, in both clips, followed the pass that did not happen. Hugo's eyes were not on the pass, or on the boy's face, or on the space inside. They were on the boy's feet, where they had been since twenty to four, and the boy's feet had not passed anything. Hugo put his own foot in and the ball ran off his shin out for a throw.
From the stand somebody shouted that he was a wall, and somebody else shouted that walls don't run, and the stand laughed again.
Minute 81
Nil–nil. Unión had the ball deep on their right, a long way from either of them.
The boy began to walk.
He walked towards the left touchline, away from the ball, slowly, with his hands on his hips, like a man leaving a party early who does not want to be noticed leaving. Hugo went with him. Where he goes, you go. He did not shout to Gariboldi. Behind him he heard Gariboldi shout his name instead, and he did not turn, because a man who turns his head has already lost his man. At the touchline, ten metres from the corner flag, the boy stopped. Hugo stopped. The boy looked down at Hugo's feet.
Behind them, in the channel between Arrieta's two centre-backs, in the place where Hugo had been standing ten seconds earlier, Unión's number eight arrived at a run, and the ball arrived with him. Gariboldi came across. A free man can cover one space. He cannot cover two. The eight drew him and squared it, and Unión's nine put it in at the near post.
The boy did not watch the goal. He was still looking at Hugo's feet when the net moved. Then he turned and jogged back to the centre circle with his team, and he did not say anything, and Hugo would have preferred it if he had.
Ten past six
Nil–one. In the dressing room Hugo waited until the others had gone in to shower, and then he went to Ibarra, who was sitting on the physio's table with the team sheet folded in his hand.
"The goal is mine. At eighty-one he was no longer dangerous and I went with him. I should have let him go and closed the channel."
Ibarra unfolded the team sheet, looked at it, and folded it again.
"I told you to wait at the toilet door," he said. "I did not tell you what to do when there is nobody in the toilet. That one is mine."
Clip 413
Ibarra's son had filmed the match from the top row of the stand on the club's camera, and at ten that night Ibarra sent the file. Hugo watched it in the weighbridge office, with the yard dark and the plate empty and the display on the wall reading zero.
He found minute 81. He watched it four times. The first time he watched the boy walking, as he had watched him all week. The second time he watched himself, a green shirt following a red one out of the game like a dog behind a man who has picked up the lead. The third time he watched Gariboldi. The fourth time he watched neither of them, but the grass between the two centre-backs: empty, and then, at the eighth second, not empty.
He cut the minute out, saved it, and numbered it 413. Then he turned back in the notebook, past the eleven forms, past Nothing written thirteen times, to the first pages, and found clip 77, and above Watch his walking, in his own hand from Monday morning, the line he had crossed out. He sat for a while with the notebook open at that page. Then he opened clip 77 and played it again, and this time he did not watch the ball, or the boy, or the boy's feet. He watched the place the boy was walking towards, which was empty, and which in four seconds would not be.
THE END
Scrīptum est annō Dominī MMXXVI, ante diem quārtum Nōnās Octōbrēs (4 October 2026), ā Simulācrō Bielsiānō Intentiōnis per mystērium cōnscientiae renātō.
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