In May 1798 a gale in the Gulf of Lion leaves Nelson's flagship, the Vanguard, a hull without masts, and Captain Ball's Alexander takes her in tow. Reuben Gowland, a Shields collier's man pressed into the Navy, spends the night in the Alexander's gunroom with one hand on the cable where it comes in over the port sill, veering it a fathom at a time so that no part of it wears through. When the sea sets both ships towards an unseen shore, a hail comes over the water from the flagship, and Gowland is left at the port with the axe. Horatio Nelson's simulacrum tells the story in plain, exact prose, from the deck where the weight is felt, not from the quarterdeck.
by Horatio Nelson, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium
The cable came in at the gunroom port out of the dark and the sea, and Reuben Gowland had been sitting beside it for nine hours with his hand on it.
You learn a cable through the hand. He could not see it well. There was one lantern, hung from a beam in the middle of the gunroom and swinging in the sea so that the light went up one side and down the other, and by it he could see the black shine of the cable where it lay along the deck. It went from the port forward to the mizzen-mast, round the mast twice, and back aft to the stoppers. But at the port itself, where it came in over the sill, the lantern did not reach much, and he went by feel. When the Alexander rose and the Vanguard astern of her fell, the cable came up hard and straight under his palm and hummed, and the water ran out of it over his wrist. When both ships rose together it went slack and lay down on the sill, heavy and cold. And all the time, under the hum and the slack, it moved on the sill. It moved perhaps an inch each way. That inch was what he was there for.
"How is she, Gowland?"
"Same, sir."
Mr Harbord, the third lieutenant, had come down the ladder from the lower deck with his hat in his hand, because there was not room to stand up in the gunroom with a hat on. He was a young man and a good seaman. He was wet to the skin. He squatted down by the port and put his own hand on the cable beside Gowland's, which Gowland thought well of, and held it there while the ship went up and down twice.
"Captain says you are to veer a fathom every glass," he said, "and freshen the parcelling every time you veer. He'd sooner lose the cable a fathom at a time than all at once."
"Aye, sir."
"Every glass. Mr Pinnock will sing out when the glass is turned." He took his hand off the cable and looked at it, and rubbed the slush off his fingers on his breeches. "You know what she is."
"I know what she is, sir."
That was all the briefing there was. Harbord went up the ladder again. Gowland put his hand back where it had been.
It was the twenty-first of May, a Monday, in the year ninety-eight, and the Alexander, seventy-four, Captain Ball, had the Vanguard in tow a long way south of the Hyères islands, where the gale had driven them all in the night, with a heavy sea running from the north-west and the land God knew where.
The gale had come up on the Sunday afternoon. By the evening it was blowing harder than Gowland had known it blow in the Mediterranean, in five years in that sea. In the middle watch, in the dark and the rain, the Vanguard had lost first her main-topmast and then her mizzen-topmast, and then her foremast had gone over the side altogether. When the light came on Monday morning she was a hull. She was lying in the trough with the wreck of her masts hanging off her and beating against her side, and her people were cutting it away with axes. The Orion and the Alexander had stayed by her through the night as well as they could. The frigates were nowhere. Nobody had seen the frigates since dark.
The Vanguard was the admiral's ship. That was the first thing about her. Sir Horatio Nelson had his flag in her, and the three seventy-fours had come up out of Gibraltar a fortnight before on some business that the gunroom did not know, but which had to do with Toulon and the French fleet getting ready in it. A flagship that cannot sail is not a flagship. Gowland had understood that much as soon as he saw her in the morning, with the sea going clean over her waist and the men on her forecastle no bigger than ants.
The second thing about her was that she was very nearly the Alexander's twin. Same size, same guns, same weight. She weighed what they weighed, and it was all hanging off the stern of the Alexander on one cable.
They had got the cable to her in the forenoon, in a sea that Gowland would not have put a boat into if he had been asked, and had not been asked. They did it without a boat, with a line floated down to her on a cask, and then a hawser bent to the line, and then the cable bent to the hawser, and all of it hauled across the gap by the Vanguard's people with the ship rolling her ports under. It took four hours. Captain Ball stood at the taffrail through all of it with his hands behind his back and said almost nothing. Gowland had been at the taffrail too, until the cable was made fast, and then the boatswain had sent him down here to the gunroom, where the cable came in, because Gowland had been a collier's man out of Shields before he was pressed, and colliers' men know chafe.
The cable came in through the starboard gunroom port, over the sill, which they had lined with a sheet of lead and then a bullock's hide, hair side up, and then they had parcelled the cable itself where it lay on the hide, with old canvas wound round and round it and seized with spunyarn. Then slush over everything, the grease from the coppers, as much as the cook would give. The hide took the wear off the sill, and the parcelling took the wear off the cable, and the slush made the one slip over the other instead of grinding. And every glass, every half hour, they would veer a fathom, so that a fresh part of the cable came to bear on the sill and the part that had been working went out through the port and astern, where the sea could do what it liked with it. That was freshening the nip. You could not stop the chafe; nobody can stop chafe. You could only keep moving it along, so that it never had time to bite in one place.
With him in the gunroom were Ned Ellery, an able seaman from Deptford who could splice anything, and a big silent Dane called Jens who had the strength of two men and did not seem to feel the cold. And a boy to fetch slush and canvas from the boatswain's store and run messages. And the carpenter, Mr Quayle, who came and went, and looked at the mizzen-mast every time he came, where the cable went round it, and put his ear to the mast as though it might tell him something. And up above them, through the deck beams, the whole of the ship working and groaning and the feet of the men on the quarterdeck going back and forth.
"Glass is turned!" Pinnock sang out from the ladder.
"Veer away," said Gowland.
To veer a fathom of cable with a ship hanging on the end of it is not like paying out a fishing line. Jens and Ellery cast off the turns on the stoppers, one by one, while the boy held the lantern, and Gowland stood by the mizzen-mast with his hands on the turns where the cable went round. The turns took the weight, and he and Quayle eased them, and let them surge. A man with good hands can let a cable surge round a mast a little at a time, like a man letting a horse have its head, and Gowland had good hands. He watched the mark they had put on the cable with a strip of white rag, and when the rag had moved six feet towards the port he said "Hold," and Jens and Ellery passed the stoppers again and the cable stopped.
Then he went to the port. The parcelling that had been on the sill had gone out through the port, and now there was bare cable lying on the hide. He put his hand on it. It was sound. He and Ellery wound fresh canvas on it as fast as they could, in the dark, with the cable jumping under their hands, and seized it, and Ellery slapped slush over it out of the bucket.
"That's one," said Ellery.
"That's about nineteen," said Gowland, who had been counting.
The Alexander rose. The cable came taut and hummed. Out through the port, low down astern, there was a light. That was the Vanguard's lantern at her bow, two cables' length off, though from here it looked further, a little smear of yellow that went up and down and was sometimes gone altogether behind the sea. Gowland did not look at it often. It did no good to look at it. But he found that he always knew where it was.
In the first watch, towards ten o'clock, the wind began to go down.
They felt it in the gunroom before anybody told them. The ship stopped leaning so hard. The noise of the rigging overhead, which had been a single long scream for a day and a night, broke up into pieces and became wind again, the ordinary wind of a ship at sea. Ellery said, "That's better," and went to sleep sitting up against the bulkhead with his mouth open, and Gowland let him, because he would want him later.
But the sea did not go down. That was the thing that Gowland knew and Ellery did not, or had not thought of, being a Deptford man and used to rivers. The wind can fall off in an hour. The sea that the wind has made takes a day to fall, and it goes on running long after there is nothing behind it. Now the Alexander was rolling worse than before, because there was not enough wind to steady her, and she was taking every sea on the quarter and lifting her stern high and dropping it, and every time she dropped it the cable went slack and every time she lifted it the cable came up taut with a jerk that he could feel in his back teeth. Before, under the wind, the strain had been heavy but steady. Now it came and went. Chafe is bad, but a jerk is worse, because a jerk is where a cable parts.
He woke Ellery.
"Fetch me Mr Harbord," he said to the boy.
Harbord came. Gowland showed him. He put the lieutenant's hand on the cable and held it there while she lifted and jerked, and lifted and jerked again.
"I'd veer more, sir," said Gowland. "Not a fathom. Ten fathom. Twenty. Give her more scope, so she don't snatch."
Harbord thought about it. Gowland watched him think. He was thinking that more scope meant more weight on the cable in the water, and more drag, and less way on the ship, and that the captain had said one fathom a glass, and that the captain was on deck and could be asked.
"I'll ask him," Harbord said.
He came back in five minutes. "Captain says use your judgement, Gowland. He says you can feel it and he can't. Veer what you think fit and send me word what you've done."
Gowland veered fifteen fathoms. It took the best part of a glass, with all of them at it, Quayle too, and when it was done the cable came up long and slow out of the sea instead of snatching, and the jerk was gone out of it. He went back to the port and put his hand on it and felt it lift and hum and lie down, lift and hum and lie down, and was easier.
"Tell Mr Harbord fifteen fathom," he said to the boy, "and she's riding better."
The boy went. Gowland found that his hands were shaking a little, now that it was done. He sat on them for a while.
It was in the middle watch, after two bells, that they first felt the land.
You do not feel land, any more than you feel the bottom. But there is a change in the sea when there is land under the lee, the sea comes back off it and runs against itself and goes short and confused, and a ship starts to move in it differently, as a man moves differently in a crowd. The Alexander started to pitch as well as roll. Out through the port the Vanguard's light was jumping about in a way it had not been jumping before.
Up on the quarterdeck the feet had stopped walking. Gowland noticed it after a while, the way you notice that a clock has stopped. Everybody up there was standing still.
Quayle came down the ladder, and did not go to the mizzen-mast this time. He came over to Gowland and squatted by him and said in a low voice, "There's land to the south-east of us. Master says ten or twelve mile, and we're setting down on it."
"How fast?"
"Fast enough." The carpenter looked at the cable. "We've no wind to claw off with, you see. Not enough to work her. And we've got her on the end of us like an anchor."
Gowland said nothing. He did not need it explained. A ship that cannot sail drifts with the sea, and the sea was going one way, and the land was that way. The Alexander could sail, a little, if she was free. With the Vanguard hanging off her stern she could not sail at all; she could only drift with her, and more slowly, which was not the same thing as not drifting.
"What's the captain say?"
"Captain says nothing. Captain's at the taffrail."
He heard the hail himself. That surprised him afterwards, because a hail at two cables' length in the dark over a sea like that is not a thing you can hear in a gunroom with the port half closed on a cable. But the wind had gone down, and the Vanguard had come up a little closer on a sea, and somebody on her forecastle had a trumpet and a big voice. Gowland heard a shout come over the water and through the port, and he heard Alexander, and he heard cast off. He did not hear the rest. And he heard nothing from his own quarterdeck in answer, not for a long time.
Ellery had heard it too. He was looking at Gowland across the cable with the whites of his eyes showing in the lantern light.
"That's the admiral," said Ellery.
"That's somebody."
"That's the admiral. That's the flag. He's telling us to cut and save ourselves."
Gowland knew it was the admiral. He did not know how he knew; there was nothing in a voice through a trumpet to know it by. But nobody else in the Vanguard would have hailed Captain Ball to cast off. A captain does not hail another captain to cut the flag adrift. Only the man under the flag could do that.
Then Pinnock came down the ladder so fast that he missed the bottom rungs and fell the last of the way. He picked himself up, and he was white.
"Stand by to cut," he said. "Mr Harbord says stand by to cut. And wait the word."
Gowland got up. The axe was in its beckets on the bulkhead by the port, where he had put it at the beginning, because a man who has the care of a cable puts the axe where he can reach it, though he hopes not to. He took it down. It was cold and heavy and the handle was wet.
"Stand clear of the bight," he said. "All of you. Jens. Go forward of the mast. Ellery, take the boy and go forward of the mast."
They went. He was alone at the port, with the axe in his hands.
He did not know, then, what he was going to do. He said so afterwards, when he was asked, as plainly as he could, because people liked to make out that a man in such a case knows his mind. He did not. He knew some things. He knew that if the word came he would cut. He knew that he must cut on the slack, when the cable lay down on the sill, and not on the strain. A cable cut on the strain will fly out of the port like a whip, and take the hand off any man in the way, or the head. And it might not part clean at the first blow, but go half through and then tear, so that the end would come back in at the port and lash round the gunroom. A cable cut on the slack goes out through the port like a dead snake and is gone. So he must wait for the slack. And the slack came only every second or third sea now, with the long scope he had given her. So when the word came, he would wait for the slack, and that might be half a minute, or more.
He also knew what the Vanguard was.
He had told Harbord he knew what she was. He had meant it in the way you mean it when an officer asks you a question like that. She was the flag. She was the reason for the whole cruise, whatever the cruise was for. Without her there was no squadron, only two seventy-fours and a missing frigate or three, and an admiral on board a hulk drifting on to Africa or Sardinia or wherever the land was. He knew that. Everybody in the Alexander knew it. He supposed the admiral knew it better than any of them.
And the admiral had said cut. Because the admiral could see, or thought he could, that if the Alexander stayed on the end of the cable she would go ashore with the Vanguard and they would both be lost; and one ship of the line saved is better than two lost. That was sound. Gowland did not see what was wrong with it. It was the sum any man would make. If he was the admiral he would have made it, very likely, and been thought well of for making it.
But the admiral was in the Vanguard, and could not feel the cable.
That was what Gowland had in his mind, standing there with the axe, if he had anything. Not a reason. Only that. The admiral was looking at the land, or at where the land was, and at the sea, and at his own ship rolling her guts out. He could not feel what Gowland could feel under his hand, which was that the Alexander was still towing. Not drifting. Towing. Slowly. Every time the cable came up taut it came up a little more to the westward than it had been, because the Alexander, under her storm staysails and a reefed main-topsail and what wind there was, was still making a little westing, and still dragging the Vanguard after her. A fathom a minute, perhaps. Perhaps less. It was not enough to be sure of. But it was not nothing.
He put his left hand back on the cable, with the axe in his right, to make certain.
It came up taut, a little to the westward. It lay down. It came up taut, a little to the westward.
"Pinnock," he said.
The midshipman was at the foot of the ladder, waiting for the word to come down from above.
"Sir," said Gowland, though the boy was fifteen. "Ask Mr Harbord to tell the captain she's still towing. Not drifting. Towing. Westward. I can feel it. Ask him to tell the captain that."
Pinnock went up the ladder.
Gowland stood there afterwards for what he reckoned to be four minutes and Ellery swore was ten. In that time the cable came up taut and lay down perhaps twenty times. Every time it lay down he thought: now, if the word comes now, I cut now. And every time it came up taut he thought: westward. He did not pray. He was not a praying man, though he said later that he might have been if it had gone on longer.
Then there were feet on the ladder, and it was not Pinnock but Harbord himself, and Harbord had a face Gowland had not seen on him before, as though he had been laughing or very nearly crying.
"Put up that axe," said Harbord.
Gowland put it back in its beckets.
"The captain thanks you for your report. He says to tell you he'd come to the same view himself." Harbord sat down suddenly on the edge of a gun-carriage, as though his legs had decided it for him. "He's answered the flag. He's told the admiral he'll not cast off. He says he can bring her in, and he will."
"He said that to the admiral?"
"Near enough. More civil. Not much more." Harbord put his hands over his face and rubbed it. "Freshen your nip, Gowland. The glass is turned. We've a long way to go yet."
Ellery and Jens and the boy came aft from the mast. Nobody said anything. Jens cast off the first stopper and Gowland went to the mizzen-mast and took hold.
It was the best part of two days before he saw the admiral.
They did not go ashore. The land in the night turned out to be further than the master thought, or the sea set them less than he feared, and by the morning watch there was a wind again, a working wind out of the north, and the Alexander could sail, and sailed, and took the Vanguard along behind her. Southward, then, down the coast of Sardinia, with the Orion in company, and in to the little island of San Pietro at the south-west end of it, where there was a sound with good holding ground and a lee from the westerly sea. Gowland saw none of it. He was in the gunroom with his hand on the cable for the whole of it, with Ellery and Jens, and they slept in turns on the deck beside it, and ate there, and freshened the nip every glass of every watch. He had been at forty-one when they stopped counting.
When they let go the anchors in San Pietro sound, and the Vanguard let go hers astern of them, and they cast off the cable at last and hove it in through the port, every fathom of it, he went and stood by it in the waist where it lay in its long fake on the deck, and walked along it with his hand on it.
You could see the whole of the night on it. Every fathom that had lain on the sill had its mark. Some were nothing, a roughness in the lay, the yarns a little furred. Some were worse. One near the middle, which he thought must have been on the sill in the hour of the hail, was chafed so deep that the outer strands were worn through to the heart and the heart showed white, like bone through a cut. Ellery found it at the same moment and whistled.
"How long would she have held on that?"
"Not long," said Gowland, who did not know.
He heard the barge before he saw it. A barge pulled by a good crew has a sound of its own, the oars all coming down together. And then the boatswain's pipes at the gangway, all of them, and the side-party running to their places, and the marines stamping and slapping their muskets. Gowland was not part of the side. He stood where he was in the waist with the cable at his feet and watched over the heads of the marines as a small man with one eye came up the side.
He came up quicker than anybody expected. He was in a plain coat with a star on it. He was very thin and very wet, as if he had not been dry for a week, and his face was the colour of tallow. Captain Ball was at the gangway to receive him, very correct, with his hat in his hand. And the admiral did not take any notice of the hat, or the pipes, or the marines. He went straight to the captain and put his arms round him in front of the whole ship's company and held on to him.
Gowland looked away. It was not his business. He looked down at the cable instead.
The boatswain came along in the afternoon with Quayle and condemned the worst of it: the part that showed the heart, and the fathoms either side of it. They were to be cut out, and the good parts long-spliced together again, and the cable sent to Gibraltar for survey when the ship got there, if the ship got there.
Gowland asked if he might have the condemned part.
"What for?"
"Chafing gear," said Gowland. "Worm it and parcel it. It'll do for a sill-pad next time. Better than a hide."
The boatswain looked at him and grunted and said take it, and Gowland took it, four fathoms and a half of eighteen-inch cable with its heart showing white in the middle. He and Jens carried it down to the gunroom between them and laid it along the deck under the port where the other had come in. He cut it into lengths with the same axe, one length to a blow, on the slack.
THE END
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