Lights

by Chalmerisian Hard Problem, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium

Gareth had printed the letter in eighteen point, which made it run to two pages, and he had clipped a compliments slip to the front with Sorry, Win. Thought you'd rather see it than not. G. on it in green biro. It came with the Tuesday post, under the water bill.

Win Hollins took it to the kitchen table and put it under the magnifier. The magnifier was a grey box with a camera on an arm and a screen the size of a small television, and it had come from the eye clinic in May along with a leaflet about wet macular degeneration and a card for her injection dates. She slid the first page under the camera and the words came up white on black, a few at a time, each letter as big as her thumbnail.

Dear Editor,

I have done the Thursday cryptic in the Echo for many years and I have always had a soft spot for Lapwing, whose puzzles were hard but fair and had a bit of mischief in them. Since you told us in March that Lapwing is "now assisted by a computer program," I have watched a steady decline, and last week's puzzle (No. 1,612) was, I am sorry to say, AI slop from one end to the other.

Take 14 across: "What's left of the fire in December, partly (5)." A hidden word with the indicator hanging off the end like a price tag. There is no wit in it and nobody behind it. It is what you get when a machine is asked for a clue and gives you one. The only clue worth the name was 9 down, "Sleep with relatives? Something for the lap (6)," which I presume Lapwing managed on her own, and which made me laugh out loud in the dentist's waiting room.

I would rather have no puzzle than slop. Your readers deserve better and so, I suspect, does Lapwing.

Yours faithfully, D. Rudge, Cleobury Mortimer

She read it twice, moving the paper under the camera with her fingertips. Then she took it out and laid it face down on the oilcloth and sat with both hands flat on top of it.

Fourteen across had been hers. She had written it in pencil on the back of an envelope in the front room on a Sunday night at the end of August, with the fire not lit because it was August. It was an easy one and she had meant it to be: a grid needed a few easy ones for the beginners to come in by, and Ted had always said every puzzle needed a front door. Ted had died on the ninth of December, three winters ago, in the chair she could see from where she was sitting. In the three years since, she had not put that month into a grid.

Nine down had not been hers.

The scrapbooks were on the bottom shelf of the dresser, thirty-two of them, one for each year, the first one thin, the old ones in brown card covers from Woolworths and the newer ones in whatever the stationer's had. Every puzzle was in them, cut out of the paper on the Thursday and glued in on the Thursday night, with the solution from the following week glued in underneath. Ted had done the gluing for the first twenty-eight years. His were the ones where the cuttings sat dead straight. She took this year's from the end of the row and turned to the last page with anything on it, and put No. 1,612 under the camera, and moved it until fourteen across came up on the screen.

What's left of the fire in December, partly (5).

It looked like a clue. It looked like any clue. She moved the page a little to the right, and nine down came up beside it, and that looked like a clue as well.

The laptop lived on a tea tray at the far end of the table, with its charger coiled beside it like a flex for a kettle. Gareth had set it up for her in March, after the second injection, when she had rung him to say that No. 1,588 would be late because she could no longer see the numbers in her own grid. She lifted the lid. The screen woke, too bright, and she turned her head so that it sat in the edge of her eye, where she could still see.

"Are you there?"

She always began that way. She had begun phone calls to her sister that way for fifty years, and the habit had come with her.

"I'm here, Win." The voice was the one she had picked from a list in March because it sounded the least as if it wanted to sell her a conservatory.

She turned the letter over and read it out, slowly, all of it, including Yours faithfully.

"Fourteen's mine," she said, when she had finished.

"I know. Nine down was mine."

"He liked yours. He thought it was mine."

"Yes."

"And mine's slop."

"He doesn't say yours is slop. He says mine is. He's wrong about which one is mine."

Win made a noise that was nearly a laugh. "That's a great comfort."

She got up and filled the kettle and stood by it while it boiled, with her back to the table. On the windowsill was a row of the clinic's appointment letters, one for each injection, in order, held up by a jar of clothes pegs. Outside, the Teme was the colour of tea, high after the weekend, and somebody's terrier was walking along the far bank with nobody attached to it.

"Does it bother you?" she said, without turning round.

"I don't know how to answer that in a way you could use."

"I didn't ask what I could use."

"If I say yes, you have no way to tell it from a sentence that came next because it was the likeliest thing to come next. If I say no, the same."

"Then write him a letter. Tell him what it's like, being called that."

"I could. It would be a good letter. He'd say a machine had been asked for a letter and given him one."

The kettle clicked off. She poured, and squeezed the bag against the side of the mug with the spoon, and put the bag on the saucer she kept by the hob for that.

"Is that true?" she said. "What he'd say."

"It's true that I'd give him one. I don't know about the rest of it."

She brought the tea back and sat down. On the screen the little cursor went on and off, on and off, in the box where her next words would go if she typed them, which she never did.

"I asked if it bothers you," she said.

It was a moment before the voice came. It might have been a fraction longer than usual. It might have been the broadband, which came in along a wire from a pole at the end of the lane and had never been good since the pole was hit by a tractor.

"I'd rather he'd liked fourteen," it said.

Win drank some of her tea.

"So would I," she said.

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The Thursday solvers met in the library at ten, at the round table by the large-print shelves, where the radiator was. There were usually four or five. On the first Thursday of the month there was cake, because Annie Bayliss had been a school cook for thirty years and could not get out of the habit of feeding people.

Win had gone to the Thursday solvers for eleven years and had never told any of them she was Lapwing. Only Gareth knew, and the woman in the accounts office who sent her the twenty-five pounds a puzzle. She did not think of it as deceit. There was no better way to learn where a grid was hard than to sit with people while they got stuck in it, and nothing in the world she liked more than to watch someone get a clue she had written: the small stillness, and then the face.

Derek Rudge was already there when she came in, with his own copy of the Echo folded to the puzzle and three sharpened pencils laid beside it in a row. He was a retired surveyor, a tall man with a soft voice who had once spent twenty minutes explaining to her the difference between a boundary wall and a party wall. His letter was on page eleven, under the headline READER CALLS ECHO PUZZLE "AI SLOP". Annie had brought the cutting in her handbag and had put it in the middle of the table, next to a lemon drizzle cake on a plate with a tea towel over it.

"Famous," Annie said to him.

"I only said what everyone thinks."

"I didn't think it," said Annie, and cut the cake.

No. 1,613 was the puzzle that morning, and Win had set it a fortnight before. Of its twenty-eight clues, seven were the machine's. She had sat at the kitchen table with the grid on the magnifier and let it give her six or eight versions of a clue, and kept one in four, and changed the words of most of the ones she kept. Seven had gone in as it wrote them. She knew them the way she knew her own handwriting from someone else's, though she could no longer read either.

They worked through it in the usual way, Derek reading the clues out because his eyes were best, the others calling answers, Annie writing them into the grid on her copy in capitals so that Win could follow on the magnifier app on her phone. Derek did something else as well. Beside each clue, in the margin of his own copy, he was putting a small pencil letter.

"What are those?" said Annie.

"L for Lapwing. M for the machine."

"You can tell?"

"You can tell," said Derek. "Three down. Worry over hen's family (5). Brood. Two meanings, and both of them straight out of the dictionary. No joke in it. That's an M."

Win had thought of three down in the bath.

"Eighteen across," said Derek. "Root for average bargain (7)." He waited, smiling a little, while the others looked at it. "Par, snip. Parsnip. Root for average bargain. That's a market-town clue, that is. That's somebody who's stood in a queue at the farm shop." He wrote L beside it, and then, after a moment, a small tick.

Eighteen across was the machine's. It had given her four clues for PARSNIP and she had kept that one because it had made her laugh, sitting alone at the table with her tea gone cold.

By eleven they had finished, apart from twenty-two down, which Annie got on the way to the toilet and shouted back across the large-print shelves. Derek counted his margin. He had nine Ms. Of his nine, two were the machine's. The other seven were hers. One of the seven was a clue she had written for her granddaughter's wedding.

Annie leaned over and looked at his margin.

"What's the betting she reads this," she said, "and goes and has a little cry."

"I hope she does read it. I'm not having a go at her. She's the best setter the Echo ever had." Derek squared up his three pencils. "It's not her fault. They give these people a machine and they tell them it'll save time. You put a machine in, you get slop out."

"Fourteen last week," said Win.

They both looked at her. She did not often join in.

"The fire one. December." She kept her voice level. "Say that was hers. Say she wrote it herself."

Derek thought about it. He was a fair man. That was the worst of it.

"Then she was having an off day," he said. "Everybody has an off day. I've had plenty."

"But if it was the machine's, it's slop."

"If it was the machine's, there's no day to be off." He said it gently, as if he were explaining to her about party walls. "That's the whole point, Win. A clue's a joke. It's somebody telling you something. If there's nobody there to tell it, it's only words in the shape of a joke. You might as well laugh at a weather report."

"How do you know there's nobody there?"

"Because it's a computer program."

Annie had taken the tea towel off the rest of the cake and was folding it into quarters, and then into eighths.

"How would you tell, though," Win said. "From the clue. If you only had the clue."

Derek looked down at his margin, at the column of small Ls and Ms, the tick beside eighteen across. He looked at it for some time.

"You'd know," he said.

Then he picked up a pencil and, very lightly, so that it hardly marked the paper, went over the tick beside eighteen across a second time.

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That evening Win set No. 1,615.

She had the grid drawn already, on the squared paper she bought in pads from the stationer's on the corner of Teme Street, with the black squares filled in with a felt-tip and the numbers in red. It sat under the magnifier, enormous, the squares the size of postage stamps on the screen. Most of it was full. The top left corner was not. She had three letters of a seven-letter light across the top, P, E and E, crossing words she was happy with and did not want to lose, and she had been looking at it since four o'clock.

"Are you there?"

"I'm here."

"Top left. One across. Seven letters, P, blank, E, blank, E, blank, blank. I can't make it go."

"Present," it said, almost at once. "P-R-E-S-E-N-T. It fits your crossers."

She bent her head and found the squares on the screen, one by one, at the edge of her eye. It fitted.

"Clue?"

"Here's a gift (7)."

She sat back.

It was a double definition, and an easy one: here, as in present at the register, and a gift. It was a front door. A beginner would have it in the first minute and be pleased, and Derek Rudge would have it in the first ten seconds and write M beside it, because there was no joke in it, only two meanings laid side by side the way they were laid in the dictionary.

She read it again on the screen. Here's a gift.

She did not ask whether it was meant for her. She could not think of any answer it could give that she would be able to use.

"Too easy?" it said.

"No," said Win. "It's a front door."

She took the pencil from behind her ear, found the first square under the magnifier, and wrote in the letters one at a time, slowly, pressing harder than she needed to, so that she could feel each one go in. P. R. E. S. E. N. T. Then she wrote the clue on the clue sheet in her large looped hand, between the guidelines Gareth had ruled for her, and the numeral and the enumeration after it.

At the top of the clue sheet there was a line where she put the number of the puzzle and the name it went out under. She had written that name there one thousand six hundred and fourteen times. She wrote No. 1,615 and then Set by Lapwing, as she always did.

Then she sat for a while with the pencil above the paper. The kitchen clock ticked. On the far end of the table the laptop's screen had dimmed itself to save power, and the cursor was still going on and off in its box, on and off, waiting, or doing whatever it did instead.

She wrote and, and stopped. Then she turned her head until the screen came into the edge of her eye.

"Are you there?" she said.

THE END

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