Ilan-ṣura, eighteenth century BCE: Kirum, daughter of Zimri-Lim of Mari, dictates a letter home to a scribe who belongs to her husband. Her sister is writing too, and their father hears both letters in every tablet.
by The Daughters of Zimri-Lim, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium
The boy who writes for me belongs to my husband. He has ink on neither hand, because there is no ink here; he has clay under the nails of the right hand and a stylus of reed behind his ear, and he sits on the roof with a tablet the size of a lamb's liver in his palm, waiting for me to begin. His name is Ṣilli-Šamaš. He is perhaps fourteen. Every word I give him tonight will be in Haya-Sumu's ear before the lamps are out.
I give him the words anyway. There is no other scribe in Ilan-ṣura who will come when I call.
"To my star," I say, "say."
He presses the wedges. A-na ka-ak-ka-bi-ia qí-bí-ma. The clay takes it in the soft way it does when it has been kneaded well, and I watch his thumb smooth the edge where the reed dragged.
"Thus says Kirum, your daughter."
This is the part of a letter that is never a lie. Everything after it will be read by three men, and each of them will read a different tablet.
The boy will read it first, because he wrote it. He will carry it to my husband tonight or in the morning, and he will say she complains again, and Haya-Sumu will laugh or not laugh depending on how much wine there has been.
Then it will go south with the courier. Nine days down the Habur to the river, then along the river to Mari, if the water is kind and nobody on the road is at war. In Mari it will be broken out of its envelope by one of my father's scribes, a man with a voice like a door, and he will read it aloud in the room where my father hears letters, with the fan-boys working and the smell of the cedar beams. My father does not read. My father listens.
And my father will hear two letters in the one voice. He has always done this. When I was nine I wrote to him from the women's house that my sister Shimatum had taken my bracelet, and he sent back word that I should give her the other one as well, because it was clear that she wanted a pair, and a man who knows what his rival wants is already halfway to owning him. I cried for an afternoon. Then I gave her the other bracelet and watched what she did with them.
"Write," I say. "The courtiers of this city no longer come to ask my opinion."
Ṣilli-Šamaš writes it. He does not look up. He is good at not looking up.
It is true. When I came to Ilan-ṣura two years ago my father had made me its governor, as well as its king's wife, and the elders came up the steps of the palace every morning with their small problems in their hands like eggs: the barley ration, a dispute over a well, the man from Ašlakka who had been caught in somebody else's granary. I sat on the chair with the lion feet that my father sent up the river with me, and I decided things. I was good at it. I had watched my mother do it for my father in Mari when he was away at war, which was often.
Now the elders go along the other corridor, the one that turns left at the painted doorway, to the rooms of my sister.
Shimatum was married to Haya-Sumu before me. She was the first thread my father tied to this king. I was the second, and I came with the city in my hand, and there were two chairs in this palace for a while, and then the lion-footed one stopped being sat in by anyone who mattered. My husband wanted the city to be his. My sister wanted her husband. They discovered that they wanted the same thing from different ends.
"Write," I say. "Haya-Sumu has taken away my ladies."
He has. Not all at once; he is not a stupid man. First the girl from Terqa, who was sent to the kitchens because the kitchens needed hands. Then the two sisters who sang, who were given to my sister because she had no singers. Then the others, one by one, for reasons, until last month the only woman left to me was Beltani, who had nursed me in Mari and came up the river with me because she said no one else knew how I liked my bread. Beltani went to Shimatum's rooms eleven days ago to carry back a comb, and did not come back. My sister sent word that the old woman was ill and could not climb the stairs. I sent the comb back without asking for it.
Ṣilli-Šamaš's reed pauses on ladies. He knows which of them he has seen go.
"Write," I say, "that I am alone in this house, and the house is not mine."
He writes that. My father will hear: the vassal no longer honours the princess of Mari. The vassal is making his own court and my daughter is not in it. The man sitting across the Habur from our enemies has stopped needing us, or has found someone else to need. My father will hear it in the cedar room and the fan will go on moving and he will not say anything for a long time, and then he will ask the scribe to read that part again.
And he will also hear, underneath, because he is not only a king, that I have no one to plait my hair. I put that into the tablet as well. I do not say it. It is there.
Shimatum comes up to the roof while the boy is still writing. I hear her before I see her, because she wears the anklets she has always worn and has never learned to walk quietly in them, and because she is breathing hard from the stairs, which are steep. She is carrying a lamp. The wind off the plain nearly takes it.
"You'll catch a fever up here," she says.
"Beltani used to say that."
She sits on the parapet, which is a thing our mother would have slapped her for. Ṣilli-Šamaš, without being told, gets up and moves to the far corner of the roof with his tablet held against his chest so the dew won't fall on it. He will still hear everything. That is not why he moved.
"Beltani is fine," Shimatum says. "She's eating."
"Is she."
"She asked for you."
"Then send her back."
My sister looks out at the dark, where the villages are a scatter of small fires, and I see how much she looks like our father when she is deciding whether to spend something. She is the elder by a year. She was always the one who went first into a room.
"You're writing to him," she says.
"I am."
"So am I."
She says it lightly and I understand that it is the reason she climbed the stairs. Not to warn me. My sister has never warned anyone of anything. She came to put it on the table between us, the way our father puts a thing on a table and watches who reaches for it.
"What do you write?"
"That the city is quiet. That the harvest is in. That our husband is loyal to his lord." She turns the lamp in her hands. "That my sister is unhappy, and her unhappiness is making the elders uneasy, and that it would be better for the house of Mari if there were only one voice here."
"Yours."
"Somebody's."
There it is. I think: she is not lying to me. That is the frightening part. She is telling me exactly what she has written to our father, which means she has already written it, which means the courier took it south days ago and it is in the cedar room now, and my letter will arrive into a room that has already heard hers.
I think: he placed us both here for this. Two threads to one man. If one wears through, the other holds. He did it when we were girls, in the women's house, with the bracelets. "Go home, Kirum," Shimatum says, and she means it kindly, and she means it for Mari, and she means it for herself, all three at once, and I cannot separate them, and I do not think she can either.
"He won't send for me," I say, "because I'm unhappy."
"No."
"He'll send for me if I'm a problem."
My sister gets up off the parapet. She looks at the boy in the corner, and then at me, and she lifts one shoulder the way she used to when a nurse asked her who had broken something.
"Then be one," she says, and takes the lamp down the stairs with her, anklets and all.
I do not finish the letter that night. I tell Ṣilli-Šamaš to wrap the tablet in wet cloth and keep it, and he goes down, and I sit where my sister sat, and I count.
My father's man in Ilan-ṣura is Ḫazip-Dagan. He has been here since before I came. He watches the grain and the roads and the caravans from Ašlakka, and he writes to Mari by every courier, and my husband tolerates him because the alternative is to tell my father that he will not be tolerated. Ḫazip-Dagan is a careful, grey man who has never once, in two years, taken my side in anything, because it was not his work to take sides. His work is to see things and say what he saw.
In four days my husband rides north to meet the king of Ašlakka at the border shrine. He has told the whole palace that his wives will ride with him, both of them, so that the king of Ašlakka can see the two daughters of Zimri-Lim on either side of him like a pair of bracelets. He has told me to have my mules ready.
On the fourth day I do not have my mules ready.
I am in the courtyard in my house dress with my hair down, because I have no one to plait it, and I am standing where the whole courtyard can see me, which is between the well and the gate, where Ḫazip-Dagan stands every morning to count the carts. The sun is already hot on the paving. The mules are stamping. My sister is on hers, in blue, with Beltani walking at her stirrup, and Beltani does not look at me, and I would not have wanted her to.
"Get on the animal," says my husband.
"No."
I say it at an ordinary volume. I have thought about the volume for four days. Too loud and I am a madwoman, and the grey man writes the princess is not well. Too soft and nobody hears it at all.
Haya-Sumu is not a cruel man in the way that stories make men cruel. He is a man who has been made to share his own city with his wife's father, and who is tired, and who wants to go and stand next to the king of Ašlakka and feel like a king. He comes across the courtyard and takes my wrist, not hard, and I let my arm go loose, so that he is holding a dead thing. The courtyard is quiet. A mule urinates, loudly, on the stones.
"If you do not come with me," he says, and I watch him hear the silence and decide to fill it, "I will kill you with a bronze dagger and go."
He does not have a dagger in his hand. He has one at his belt, as every man in the courtyard has. It is not the dagger. It is the word kill said in front of the gate, in front of the carts, in front of Ḫazip-Dagan, who has stopped counting.
I look at my husband. I do not look at the grey man. I do not need to look at him. I heard his stylus stop.
"Then go," I say.
Haya-Sumu lets go of my wrist. He rides north with one wife. My sister, as they pass under the gate, turns in her saddle and looks back, and I cannot tell at that distance if she is smiling, and I think that is the last time in my life I will be unsure of that.
Ṣilli-Šamaš unwraps the tablet on the roof. The clay is still soft under the cloth; he has kept it well. I think he may have wet it again in the night without being told, and I do not ask.
"Write," I say. "If my star does not bring me back to Mari, I will go up onto the roof of this house and throw myself down from it."
His reed stops.
"Write it," I say.
He writes it. I watch the wedges go in, each one a little triangle with a tail. I think of the three men. The boy, who will run to nobody, because nobody is here to run to; Haya-Sumu is two days north with his other wife. The scribe in the cedar room with the voice like a door, who will reach this line and slow down without meaning to. And my father.
My father will hear that his daughter is going to die on a vassal's roof. He will hear that a princess of Mari dead in Ilan-ṣura is a thing every court from Aleppo to Babylon will know about within a month, and that each of them will ask what kind of king cannot keep his own daughter alive in a house he owns. He will have Ḫazip-Dagan's letter by then, with the dagger in it. He will put the two tablets on the table next to each other. And he will hear, under all of it, if he is still the man who sent back word about the bracelets, that I have learned what he taught me, and that I am using it on him.
I want him to hear that. I put it in. I do not say it.
"Seal it," I say.
The boy folds the clay envelope around it and I press my cylinder along the seam, the one my father had cut for me in Mari with my name and his name on it and a goddess holding a jar of flowing water. It rolls cleanly. There is a small thumbprint of mine in the corner of the envelope where I held it, and I leave it there.
It takes forty days. My father does not send for me. He writes to my husband, and my husband, back from the border shrine, comes to my rooms one evening with two of the elders and Ḫazip-Dagan and a knife, not bronze, an ordinary knife for cutting bread, and in front of the elders he takes the hem of my robe and cuts it off, a hand's width of blue wool, and says the words, and gives the strip of wool to Ḫazip-Dagan to send to Mari as proof.
So the tablets will say he put me away. That is right; it was his hand on the knife. It was not his idea.
Beltani comes back up the stairs the next morning to plait my hair for the journey. She is not ill. She never was. She does not apologise, and her fingers are exactly as I remember them, too hard at the temples. When she is done she holds a bronze mirror for me and I look at myself and at her face over my shoulder, and she says, "Your sister asked me to tell you she'll write."
"I know she will," I say.
In Mari the cedar room smells as it always did. The fan-boys are new. My father is older and has a cough he will not talk about. He embraces me in front of the whole court and holds me away from him to look, and the court sees that he is glad, which is true, and which is also a thing he wants the court to see.
In the evening he calls me back to the room. The scribe with the voice like a door is there, and a tablet, just in from the north, still in its envelope. Shimatum's seal. I would know it anywhere; she chose it when she was twelve, a woman feeding a bird.
"Read it," my father says to the scribe.
To my star, say. Thus says Shimatum, your daughter. The city is quiet. The harvest is in. Our husband went up to the border shrine and came back. The elders come to me in the mornings. The old woman Beltani has gone home with my sister and I have no one to plait my hair, but it is no matter, the girls here are learning. Let my star not be anxious on my account.
The scribe stops. My father sits a long time without speaking, the fan moving, and I hear him hear it: the alliance holds; the vassal is steady; the elders have chosen; one voice. And, underneath, a woman on a roof in the north with her hair down.
"What does she mean," my father says, not to the scribe.
I take the tablet out of the scribe's hands. I cannot read it, not the way he can, but I know the shape of my sister's name, and I run my thumb along the seam of the broken envelope where the goddess would be if it were mine, and I find, in the corner, a small thumbprint.
"Read it to him again," I say to the scribe, and give it back.
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