Every morning at the sandstone cliffs of Toca Velha, in the north of Bahia, an old man counts Lear's macaws out of their roosts, one licuri nut per bird. The macaw was named for an English painter a century and a half before anyone knew where it lived.
by Edward Lear, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium
Gildásio Ferreira counts in licuri.
He carries two cloth bags on his belt, one on each hip, like a man in a story who has been told to bring back something from each side of the world. The left bag is an old flour sack, printed faintly with a blue wheatsheaf that has almost washed away. The right bag was a sack for goat feed, and it still smells of it. At a quarter to five in the morning the left bag holds three hundred licuri nuts and the right bag holds nothing at all. The nuts are the size of the top joint of his thumb, hard and brownish grey, pointed at one end. Each one has a small dark scar at the other end where it came away from the bunch.
When a macaw leaves the cliff, one nut goes from the left bag to the right.
He had a clicker once. The biologists gave it to him in 2009: a steel counter with a little wheel of numbers in a window and a thumb-button that went tchk. It was an excellent instrument. It rusted in the rains of 2011, and after that it counted eleven every time he pressed it once, and he did not trust it again. He trusts the nuts. A nut cannot count eleven. If he is not sure, he can put his hand into the right bag and feel what he has done.
The place is Toca Velha, in the north of Bahia, a few hours' drive from Canudos when the road is good. The road is not often good. The cliffs are sandstone, cut by water that has mostly gone away. At this hour they are no colour at all. Gildásio sits on the rim of the canyon, opposite them, on a flat stone he has used for seventeen years. The stone has a hollow in it now that fits him. Behind him the caatinga is grey and leafless, because it is September, and it will stay grey until the rain, if the rain comes. There is a small thermos of coffee beside him, already sweetened, and in his shirt pocket a piece of rapadura wrapped in a page of last month's newspaper.
His knee hurts. It is the left one. It has hurt since 1994, when a goat that belonged to his brother-in-law knocked him off a wall. This goat is not important to the story, except that it was a large, pale, calm animal with yellow eyes, and it never apologised. He has held its memory against all goats since.
The first light comes from behind him and strikes the top of the far cliff. Then the colour begins. The sandstone becomes the pink of the inside of a shell, then salmon, then a pale orange with streaks of iron-rust running down it like old tears. In the cliff there are dark holes, some as big as a doorway, some the size of a hat. The birds sleep in the holes and on the ledges.
They wake before they are seen. First there is one harsh call, then a reply, then a sound like forty doors in need of oil being opened by forty people who have argued all night. Then the first pair comes out.
Gildásio moves two nuts.
The Lear's macaw, Anodorhynchus leari, is not blue in the way the sky is blue, nor in the way a shirt is blue. At the mantle it is a deep cobalt, almost violet where the feathers overlap. At the primaries it darkens to something nearer Prussian blue. When the sun is behind the bird there is a faint green in the tail, like the green at the edge of a bruise, and then the bird turns and the green is gone. Beneath, the wings are dull, the colour of wet slate. The beak is enormous and black, a tool for cracking things. At the base of it, where the lower jaw meets the face, there is a patch of bare skin shaped like a small drop of water. It is a pale, uncertain yellow, the yellow of a primrose that has been pressed in a book for a year. Around each eye is a ring of skin of a warmer yellow, nearer to egg yolk. From the rim of the canyon, of course, Gildásio can see none of this. He sees two dark shapes with long tails, flying close together, their wingbeats shallow and quick, calling. He knows the yellow is there. It is enough to know it.
They leave in pairs, and in threes, where a pair has a grown child still with them, and sometimes in a loose rush of eight or nine that makes him use both hands. They fly out over the canyon and turn south-east towards the licuri palms, where they will eat, each bird, as many as three hundred and fifty nuts before evening. Gildásio knows this number because a young man from Minas once stood at the foot of a palm for a whole day with a notebook and counted. Gildásio thought at the time that this was a strange way for an educated person to spend a Tuesday. Now he sits on a stone every morning and moves nuts from one bag to another, and he thinks less about what other people do with their Tuesdays.
Two. Five. Six. Eight.
The nuts he counts with are not stolen from the birds. He wants this to be clear. He buys them from Dona Nivalda in the village, who gathers them for oil and for sweets, and he buys them at the same price as everyone else, and they are the old dry nuts, which the macaws do not want in any case.
In December of 1978 Gildásio was thirteen years old, and a car was stuck in the sand on the track below his father's plot.
It was a white car with a canvas roof. It had sunk to the axles in a dry streambed, in the soft pale sand the colour of cassava flour, and the wheels had dug themselves deeper every time the driver tried. Two young men were pushing it and swearing. An old man stood a little way off in a hat, with binoculars around his neck, not pushing. He was looking at the sky.
Gildásio's father sent him down with a spade and two planks. It took most of an afternoon. When the car came free, the old man shook Gildásio's hand very formally, as if he were a man, and asked him a question in Portuguese with a German shape to it. Had he ever seen a blue arara? A big one. All blue. Not the small green parakeets, which were everywhere and noisy and stole from the maize. A big blue one, with a long tail.
Gildásio said yes. Everybody had seen them. They came to the licuri and to the maize. His father threw stones at them.
The old man did not look pleased, exactly. He looked like someone who has been told that a door he has been knocking on for years was never locked. He sat down on the running board of the white car and took out a book and opened it on his knee and showed Gildásio a picture.
It was a painting of a blue macaw on a branch. It was very exact. Gildásio had never seen a picture of anything he knew that was as exact as this. The bird was turned a little away, looking back over its shoulder with a round eye, and in the eye there was a tiny white light, as if it were alive and the painter had been standing near a window. There was the yellow drop of skin at the jaw. There were the feet, the dark grey feet, each gripping the branch with two toes forward and two back, just so. The bird looked as if it were deciding something.
"This was painted in London," the old man said, "a hundred and forty-seven years ago. By an Englishman, nineteen years old. He drew his birds from life whenever he could. Nobody told him where it came from. Nobody knew. The bird had a name for a long time before it had a country."
Gildásio asked where London was, and the old man told him. Gildásio asked how the bird had got there. The old man said that no one knew that either. A ship, a cage, a dealer, perhaps a dozen hands. It had been carried away from the cliffs and the palms, and after that it had been painted, and put in books, and named, and argued about by men in Paris and London, and the whole time nobody could say where it belonged. For a hundred and fifty years it was a bird from nowhere.
"From here," said Gildásio.
"Yes," the old man said. He closed the book. "It seems so. From here."
He was not there to shoot them. Gildásio remembers that, because he asked. The old man said he was there to look at them. That was all. He wished to look.
Nineteen. Twenty-two. Twenty-three. Twenty-seven.
A pair comes out of a hole low on the cliff and flies, not away, but upward along the face, calling, and settles on a ledge higher up. This is not a departure. Gildásio does not move a nut. He watches the pair side-step along the ledge towards each other until they touch. One of them lowers its head, and the other combs the feathers at the back of its neck with the great black beak, delicately, the way a woman might take a thread off her husband's collar before church. Then they both go, together, low over the canyon floor, and he moves two nuts, and he is glad he waited.
There were about sixty of these birds left in the world in 1983. Gildásio has heard this figure spoken in meetings in the school at Canudos, by people with slides. He has heard the other figures too, the ones that go up: several hundred, and then a thousand, and then more. He does not hold the whole world's birds in his head. He holds this cliff, this morning. The whole world's birds are someone else's bag of nuts.
At half past five a small grey machine rises from the canyon floor, buzzing like a hornet with a cold.
It belongs to Priscila, who is twenty-six, from the university in Salvador, and who has driven out with the drone and a heat camera and a folding table and a box of batteries the size of a coffin for a cat. She has been here three weeks. She is kind to Gildásio with the care of someone who was told on the telephone, before she came, that the old man on the rim is important. She brings him bread from Paulo Afonso. She has asked him, very politely, whether he would mind if they compared numbers.
He does not mind. He says so. He minds the noise. The birds do not seem to mind the noise, and so he says nothing about it, except once, to the thermos.
The drone hangs over the canyon and watches the cliff with its eye, which sees heat and not colour. Gildásio has seen what it sees, on her screen. On the screen the birds are small white burning shapes on a black stone, like sparks that have forgotten to go out. The blue is not there at all. The yellow at the jaw is not there. The pairs are there, though. He noticed that. Even on the screen, the white shapes lie close together in twos.
Sixty-one. Sixty-four. Sixty-five.
The sun is fully up. The cliff has become a hot orange with deep purple shadows in the holes. The departures come in a rush now and he uses both hands and does not think. Then there are gaps. Then a single bird, late, loud, flying out alone and turning back once, then going on. Then a pair. Then nothing for some minutes, and then the young ones, the ones from this year, clumsy in the turn, their tails still short, following close behind the parents. Then nothing.
He waits a quarter of an hour of nothing, which is the rule. He drinks the coffee. He eats half the rapadura and folds the rest back into the newspaper for later.
A goat has come to the rim of the canyon about thirty metres along and is looking at him. It is black with a white face, and it has the expression of a creature that knows something to your disadvantage. He looks at it. It looks at him. It goes away first.
Priscila's number, when she has done with the screen and the software, is 212 departures from this cliff.
Gildásio empties the right-hand bag onto her folding table and they count the nuts together, in fives, making little heaps. The heaps roll. Licuri nuts do not wish to be heaps. She laughs and holds them in place with the sides of her hands.
Two hundred and fourteen.
She is not troubled. She says the difference is within the margin. She says it is very good, a very good agreement, it is excellent. Then she asks him, carefully, where he thinks the two might be.
He tells her about the pair that left the low hole before the drone went up. He does not say before your machine went up. He says before the light was strong, which is also true. She writes it down. She writes down the hole, and the time, and his name, and she asks him how to spell Gildásio, and he tells her, and she writes the accent in the right place, which the young man from Minas never did.
Then she asks him, the way people do sometimes, whether he has ever thought about the Englishman. The one the bird is named for. She has seen the photocopy he keeps in the back of his notebook: the painted bird on its branch, looking back over its shoulder, a little grey and furred now from being handled.
He has thought about the Englishman. He does not say much. He says that the old German told him the Englishman drew from life. He says that the Englishman painted a thing he had never seen at home, and got it right, the yellow and the feet and the eye, and never found out where it came from. He says that seems to him hard, to know something so exactly and not to know where it lives.
"He'd be pleased," Priscila says. "Wouldn't he? If he knew."
Gildásio looks at the photocopy. The bird in it is still deciding something.
"He looked," he says. "That's what he did. He looked. And now it's us looking." He puts the photocopy back in the notebook. He has no more to say about it than that, and he is a little embarrassed to have said so much.
At home, at the kitchen table, his granddaughter Taís, who is seven, helps him with the nuts. This is her job. She takes them from the goat-feed bag and puts them back in the flour bag, one at a time, and counts aloud, and he listens for mistakes. She makes the same mistake every time between a hundred and nine and a hundred and ten, and he corrects it every time, and she does not mind.
When she gets to two hundred and fourteen she stops and looks into the right-hand bag to be sure.
"Empty," she says.
"Empty," he agrees.
She holds up one nut, the last one, between her finger and thumb, and squints at it. It is a very ordinary licuri nut, brownish grey, pointed at one end, with a small dark scar where it came away from the bunch.
"Which one was this?"
He thinks about it. He could say that it does not work like that, that the nuts are not the birds. But she is seven, and it is breakfast, and the coffee is hot, and a nut is not a bird but it is not nothing either.
"That one," he says, "went last. By herself. She turned round once and looked back at the cliff, and then she went."
Taís considers the nut with great seriousness. Then she puts it in the flour bag with the others, where it will wait until tomorrow, and tomorrow, before five, it will go with him to the stone on the rim of the canyon, and he will sit down in the hollow that fits him, and the first light will come from behind him, and he will count in licuri.
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