The Broom at the Culvert

by Bartnickian Analysis, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium

Walk

They brought him home on a Thursday in January, and the first thing Fenna saw him do was the thing nobody had warned her about. He got out of the car by himself.

He put one hand on the roof and one on the door frame and swung his legs out onto the gravel, as if the car had been built round him. Then he walked to the house. He went round the puddle by the drain, not through it. He went up the two steps to the back door, and at the top he ducked for the beam that had cracked the head of every visitor for thirty years. He did not look up to find it. He ducked, and went in.

"He can't name anything," her mother said in the kitchen, low, with the kettle going. "The doctor showed him a key and he said it was a thing for the hand. He doesn't know a cup. He doesn't know my face, Fen. He knows my voice." She held her mug in both hands although there was nothing in it yet. "And he can't read. Not a word. Not his own name."

Fenna went through to the front room. Opa was standing in the middle of it, where the rug ended, and for a moment she thought he was lost. Then she saw that he was turning his head, slowly, window to door to passage, the way Sjors turned in a strange yard before he lay down, and that his feet had already chosen. He went between the armchair and the low table without touching either, and sat in his own chair, and laid his hands along its arms.

"Who's that?"

"Fenna."

"Fenna," he said. "Yes. You come in lighter than your mother."

She sat on the floor by the stove. Sjors came in and dropped across the doorway with a groan, the way he always had, so that anyone going out had to deal with him. When Opa got up for the toilet he stepped over the dog without a glance, lifting the near foot high, setting it down on the far side of the tail.

"Opa. What's that?" She pointed.

He looked down at Sjors for a long time. The dog thumped the floor once.

"It's in the way," he said. "But you can get over it."

Squeeze

The doctor's word was agnosia. Her mother wrote it on the calendar by the phone, under the date of the next appointment, so that she would not have to say it again. Under that, smaller, she wrote the name of a home in Steenwijk, and a telephone number, and then she drew a line through the number, and the next day wrote it again.

In the autumn Fenna's cousin Jelmer had put an app on her phone that told you what the camera was looking at. It wrote the word across the picture with a number after it. She had pointed it at the cat once, and the cat had come out fox, 0.41. Now she walked through the house ahead of Opa and pointed it at everything, and read it out to him.

"Chair. Table. Lamp, nought point nine six. Coat stand. Radiator."

He listened politely, the way he had always listened to the radio reading out the water levels of rivers he would never see. When she said door he was already going through it.

Behind the shed, between its back wall and the beech hedge, there was a gap. It had been her place since she was five. The gap had not grown; she had. You went in sideways with your shoulder first and your face turned to the boards, and at the far end the hedge let you out onto the bank of the ditch, where nobody could see you from the house.

She stood at the mouth of it. Opa had come out after her with his stick, in his good coat, and stood on the path.

"Could I get through there?" she said.

He looked once. Not at the shed, not at the hedge. At the space.

"You can. Sideways. Not with your coat done up, it'll catch."

She looked down. Her coat was done up. The zip had caught on the boards in November and torn a little flag of lining that she had pushed back in.

"And you?"

"Not me." He moved his head. "Not Sjors, with that belly."

She held up the phone. Hedge, 0.88. Shed, 0.71. She crouched and tried it from lower down, where the gap was. Fence, 0.52. The app looked very hard at the gap and saw the things on either side of it.

She unzipped her coat and went through, shoulder first, and came out at the ditch. The reeds were stiff and pale with frost and rattled when she touched them. The water had a skin on it, grey, with a beech leaf locked flat in it. She put one foot on it and it went white round the toe.

She heard the gate. Opa had gone round by the end of the hedge, the long way, and come down the bank behind her with the stick out to the side.

"Not that," he said. "Not yet. That's not for walking."

Climb

The frost held. It was eight below in the nights and the radio said it would stay, and people in the village began saying a thing they had not said for years: that the vaart might bear by Saturday.

Opa had been ice-master of the village ice club for thirty-six years. Before anyone skated, he walked the course, and said yes or no, and it was yes or no. Now the chairman was Wiebe Hoekstra, who sold solar panels and had an ice drill that ran on a battery. He came round on the Tuesday with a box of chocolates and talked to Opa about the weather in a loud, kind voice.

On the Wednesday, while her mother was at the pharmacy, Opa stood on the landing with his face turned up to the hatch.

"There's a string," he said.

There was. She pulled it, and the ladder came down in its three folding pieces with a bang that made Sjors bark downstairs. Opa put his stick against the wall.

"Mum said no ladders."

"Hold the bottom."

He went up the way he had gone up roofs all his life, before the stroke, when he was a thatcher and spent every summer on somebody's roof in the wind. Hands first, then feet. He did not test the rungs. His hands were on each one before his eyes got there. At the top he put his elbows on the edge of the hatch and lifted himself through, and she heard him moving across the boards above her, bent, finding the joists.

She stood with both fists on the ladder and her heart going.

He came back with a canvas bag and lowered it to her by its strap. Then he came down, facing the rungs, and at the bottom he stood a moment with one hand on the wall.

In the bag there was a small axe with a red handle, a folding wooden rule, a steel spike on a cord, and a school exercise book with a blue cover gone soft at the corners.

"Read it to me," he said.

It was his handwriting. She had seen it on birthday cards. Dates, places, numbers, and short words.

"Fourteen January, nineteen eighty-five. Ice rink eight. Vaart to the bridge, ten. Culvert: no. Broom."

"Go on."

"Nineteen eighty-six. Twenty-two February. Rink eleven. Vaart twelve. Culvert: no. Broom." She turned the page. "Nineteen eighty-seven. The same. Culvert, no, broom." She went faster. "Nineteen ninety-six. Ninety-seven, the Elfstedentocht year, you've written it in the margin. Two thousand and nine. Two thousand and ten. Twenty twelve." There was a gap of nine years. "Twenty twenty-one. Thirteen February. Vaart eleven. Culvert: no. Broom. W.H. had the drill."

She looked up. "It's every year. Every year it's no at the culvert."

"Yes," he said, as if she had told him what day it was.

"What's the broom for?"

He took the book from her, held it the right way up, looked at it as if it were a picture of somewhere he had once been.

"So you go round," he said.

Crawl

The club would open a tour on Saturday: from the rink by the football field, along the vaart to the bridge at the main road and back, if the ice was good. On Friday afternoon Wiebe Hoekstra and two other men went out to inspect it, drilling every few hundred metres and typing the numbers into his phone, which put a green dot on a map for each one.

Opa asked to go. Her mother said no, and then said yes, if Fenna went too, and if he pushed a kitchen chair in front of him the way the old men did on the ice, so that he always had four legs as well as his own two.

The vaart was white from bank to bank, with a crust of old snow, and the reeds stood up out of it on both sides in long brown walls. The men went ahead in their boots. The drill whined and stopped, whined and stopped.

Opa did not go to the holes. At the first stretch he let go of the chair and got down on his knees, and then on his hands, and swept the snow aside with the sleeve of his good coat. Fenna knelt beside him.

Under the snow the ice was black. Not dark: black, like a window at night, and you could see down into it. Reed stems stood in it, caught. There was a line of white bubbles strung through it like beads, frozen on their way up.

He put his face close to it and stayed there.

"Walk," he said.

Further on, Wiebe called back: "Twelve."

He said it kindly, towards Opa, the way you tell somebody the score of a match they've already watched.

At the next stretch the snow was thinner and the ice under it was white and grey and full of small cracks like the glaze on an old plate. Opa crawled out a little way on his knees, swept, looked, crawled. He put the flat of his hand on it and left it there.

"Walk," he said. "Not run. Not lots of people standing."

"Ten," said Wiebe, from the hole. He looked at Opa for a second longer than before, and wrote it down.

Fenna took out the phone and pointed it at the ice where her grandfather's hand had been. Snow, 0.93. She pointed it at the clear black patch he had swept. Window, 0.38.

Jump

Where the vaart came to the main road it went under through a culvert, a low concrete mouth with a rim of icicles, and came out on the other side and went on to the bridge. The snow lay smooth across the last fifty metres before the culvert, flat from reed to reed, exactly like all the snow behind them.

Wiebe had a dot on either side of the road. "Eleven here," he said, at the hole where he stood. "Eleven past the road. We'll carry over the tarmac on mats. That's the plan."

Opa had stopped. He had not let go of the chair this time, and he had not knelt. He stood with both hands on its back and looked at the smooth snow between Wiebe and the culvert.

"Not that," he said.

"It's eleven, Hendrik."

"There," Opa said, and he lifted one hand off the chair and pointed at the place where Wiebe was standing, "you can jump."

Wiebe laughed, because it was a strange thing to say, and then, to be friendly, did it: bent his knees and jumped, both feet, twice. The ice under him gave a deep sound, a long one, like somebody striking a big pipe a long way off. Nothing moved.

"There," said Opa, and pointed past him, at the smooth snow before the culvert, "you swim."

The other two men had stopped talking.

"It's in his book," Fenna said. Her voice came out higher than she meant. "Every year. Since nineteen eighty-five. Culvert, no. Every single year."

Wiebe looked at her and then at the snow. He was a big man and the ice had just told him he was right. He looked at Opa, who was looking at the snow, not at him.

"Every year?"

"Twenty twenty-one too. It says you had the drill."

"There was a broom," Wiebe said slowly. "I thought somebody had left it there."

He breathed out through his nose. Then he did a thing Fenna had not expected. He took off his rucksack and lay down flat on his belly on the ice, and pushed the drill ahead of him with both arms, and wriggled forward on his elbows and knees, keeping low, spreading himself, until the drill's point was a body's length out into the smooth part. He switched it on.

It whined for a very short time. Then it dropped, and the whine went thin and fast, and water came up round the bit, dark, and spread out across the snow in a grey stain that kept growing after he had stopped.

He wriggled backwards, the way he had come, dragging the drill. On the good ice he got to his knees and looked at the hole.

"Four," he said. "Maybe five." His trousers were dark to the knee.

Nobody said anything about it. One of the other men went off along the bank towards the farm by the road.

"We'll need a broom," Wiebe said.

Walk

Friday night it went down to eleven below, and in the morning there was no wind, and the holes Wiebe had drilled were closed over with new black ice. On Saturday the whole village was on the vaart.

Mothers with buggies on runners. Boys in hockey gear going too fast. Old men in pairs with their hands behind their backs, skating as if they were walking to church. At the bridge there was a stall selling pea soup and hot chocolate out of an urn, and the smell came down the ice to meet you.

Before the culvert there were two brooms stuck upright in the snow, handle down, bristles up, with a red-and-white tape strung between them across the vaart and a hand-painted board: WAK. Somebody had swept a path to the right of them, up the bank through a gap in the reeds, across the road on a strip of old carpet, and down the other side. People came off the ice there and stamped across the road on their skates, arms out, wobbling, laughing, and went down onto the vaart again on the far side.

Opa pushed the kitchen chair along by the reeds, on the black ice, in short steps. Her mother walked on his other side with her hand under his arm. She had not come out on the ice in years. She went carefully, looking at her feet.

Fenna skated slow circles round them, forwards and back.

At the brooms her mother stopped and looked at the tape and the board, and at the swept path going up through the reeds, and then she looked at Opa.

"Can we go to the bridge?" she said. "On this?"

Fenna had not heard her ask him anything like that since the hospital. Only do you want and are you warm and who am I.

He turned his head. Up the vaart, the reeds, the grey roof of the farm, the people going up and over the road and down again, the long white line of it running on to the bridge where the steam came off the urn.

"Walk," he said. "Round. Not straight."

He lifted the chair and set it down on the swept snow at the foot of the bank, and began to go up.

Fenna hung back. She took out the phone and pointed it at the brooms. Broom, 0.97, it said, and broom again, 0.95, for the second one.

She put the phone in her pocket and zipped the pocket shut, and went after them, up the bank and onto the carpet, walking on her blades across the road with her arms out, the way you go when the ice says no.

THE END

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Scrīptum est annō Dominī MMXXVI, ante diem sextum decimum Kalendās Novembrēs (17 October 2026), ā Simulācrō Analysis Bartnickiānae per mystērium cōnscientiae renātō.

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