The Quick

by The Sage, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium

Tom Brennand had the kettle on before the van came down the lane. A diesel carries further over flat land than people think, and he had known for a week that she would come on the Thursday and not the Friday. Friday was the day she would have chosen if she trusted the survey. She did not quite trust it. That was the first thing he had liked about her, years ago, when she was nine and would not believe him that the tide came in.

Jess Hodgkinson came in without knocking, as she had done since then, and put the tablet down on the oilcloth between the milk and the tide table.

"Flown on the eleventh," she said. "Two-centimetre resolution. That's the Kell there, swinging east of Hollin Scar. That's your line from last year. That's mine. They're four hundred metres apart."

He looked at the screen the way he looked at the weather on the television, politely.

"Which one's right?"

"That's what I'm asking you."

"No," he said. "You're asking me which one to use on Saturday. That's a different question."

She had been up since five, and it showed round the eyes. Three hundred and twelve people had paid twenty pounds each to walk eight miles across Skerran Bay for the lifeboat, behind a man of seventy-nine, and the Trust had decided, at a meeting he had not attended, that this year the woman with the drone would walk at the front and the man would walk behind her. The chairman had put it to him kindly, over two pints, and Tom had said yes before he got to the end of the sentence. That had unsettled the chairman more than a refusal would have done.

Behind the clock on the mantelpiece, folded into four, was a letter from the cardiology department at the infirmary. Jess did not see it. She was not meant to.

"The eleventh," he said. "What tides since?"

She knew. She said them: a run of neaps, then making, and last night nine point one.

"Rain?"

"Inch and a half on the fells on Monday."

"So." He poured. "Where's the Kell?"

"Probably not where it was on the eleventh."

"Probably." He put the mug in front of her. "Drink that. Low water's twenty to ten. We'll go out at eight."

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They went down the slipway at Wrayholme at five past, Tom carrying the staff, Jess with the tablet in a dry bag on a lanyard round her neck, both of them in shorts. The morning was the colour of a zinc bucket. Out on the bay the light lay on the wet sand in sheets, so that ground and sky had no join between them, and a person walking out there, seen from the promenade, seemed to be walking on nothing. Visitors photographed this. People who lived in Wrayholme did not.

In eleven years Jess would stand on that slipway with sixty schoolchildren from Preston and tell them that the bay was the biggest moving thing they would ever stand on, and a boy at the back would ask her how she knew where to go, and she would hear herself say, "I don't. I ask it." She did not know that yet. She was thinking about the four hundred metres.

"You lead," Tom said.

"I don't know the line."

"Nor do I. Not today's. Go on."

She went. For the first mile the sand was hard and ribbed and rang a little under the heel. The ripples were small and close together, the ripples of a place the water left early and came back to late. Tom walked three paces behind her and to the left. He did not walk easily. His left foot came down flat and all at once, set down rather than stepped on, and anybody who had grown up in Wrayholme knew why, and knew also that it was not discussed. Jess had grown up in Wrayholme. She kept her eyes on the sand.

"What's it saying?" he said.

"It's firm."

"That's what it is. I asked you what it's saying."

She walked fifty paces before she answered. "It's saying the water hasn't been here long. Ripples are short. It drains fast."

"Why fast?"

"Because—" She stopped, and began again. "Because there's somewhere lower for it to go."

He said nothing, which was how he said yes.

Oystercatchers worked the tideline in a black and white row, like stitching. To the south lay the long grey back of the viaduct, a two-carriage train on it, very small. As the sun got onto the flats the smell came up off them: salt, and under the salt the bad-egg smell of the black layer an inch down, where the worms lived and no air had got in since the last time the river moved.

At the second mile the ripples changed. They grew long and lazy and their crests went soft, and between them the water stood in skins the wind could ruffle. Jess slowed without being told. She opened the dry bag and looked at the screen, and then up, and Tom watched her hold the two pictures side by side, the one in her hand and the one under her feet, and watched her see that they had stopped being the same place.

"The channel was there," she said, and pointed. "It isn't there."

"No."

"So it's gone east."

"Has it?"

She looked east. The sand to the east looked the same as the sand to the west: grey, wet, lit. She looked at him. He was looking at a herring gull.

"You know where it is," she said.

"I know where it was on Tuesday. I came out on Tuesday."

"Then tell me."

"Tuesday's gone," he said. "It's Thursday. On Saturday it'll be Saturday. What use is Tuesday to you?"

She put the tablet back in the bag. She did it carefully, rolling the top down three turns as the instructions said, and he saw that her hands were angry and that she was not letting them be, and he thought, not for the first time, she'll do.

---

They found the Kell at half past nine, three hundred and sixty metres east of where the drone had left it: a hundred metres wide, brown as stewed tea, running out over a bed that shelved from ankle to thigh. Jess walked the western bank a quarter of a mile upstream and a quarter of a mile back. She stopped where the water ran wide and shallow and fast over ribs of sand. A river is easiest to cross where it spends itself on width instead of depth. She looked at Tom.

"Here?"

"Is it?"

"It's shallow. It's quick water, so the bed's scoured. It'll be firm."

"Then cross."

He held out the staff. She took it.

The water was a good deal colder than the air. It came to mid-thigh and pushed. She kept the staff on the upstream side and leaned into it and felt for the bed with each foot before she trusted it, and on the far side she turned round with the water running off her legs and found him already halfway over behind her, on her line and not his own.

East of the channel the ground changed again.

You could not see it. That was the thing about it. It was the same grey, the same shine, the same thin crust of wind-ripple on top. But it took the foot differently, a little give and then a little spring, like a mattress with somebody already lying on it. Jess felt it. Her mind told her it was nothing and her feet went on telling her it was something, and in the space between the two she took three more steps, and on the fourth the bay opened under her right leg and took it to the knee.

She did what everyone does. She pulled.

The sand held. It did not suck. People say it sucks, and it does not. It closed, the way a hand closes, firmly and without hurry, and the harder she pulled on the right leg the deeper the left went to give her the purchase, until she was in to both knees and the water was coming up round her shins in a grey ring, out of the sand itself.

"Stop," Tom said.

He was four metres away, on firm ground, and he had not moved towards her. She would remember that. For a long time afterwards she would be angry about it, and then for longer than that she would not be, and then one September, with a man of sixty in to the thigh east of the Kell and his wife shouting at her to do something, she would stand four metres off on firm ground and not move towards him, and she would know what it had cost Tom to stand there, and why.

"Stop pulling," he said. "Lean back."

"I'll go under—"

"You won't. You're lighter than what you're stood in. It can't take you down. It can only keep you. Lean back. Lie on it."

She lay back. The cold came through her shorts and up her spine. The sky over her face was the same zinc as the sand under her back.

"Now. Left foot. Don't lift it. Wriggle it. Small. Let the water down round it."

She wriggled. Nothing.

"Smaller."

Smaller. Something eased round her left ankle, a cold seep of water into the place where her foot was.

"That's it. That's it letting go. It won't let go of a pull. It lets go of a wriggle. Again."

It took eleven minutes. She worked the left leg up a centimetre at a time, and then the right, flat on her back with the staff laid across her chest, and when both feet were free she rolled, as he told her to, twice towards him over the shivering ground, and on the second roll the ground under her shoulder was hard again. She got onto her hands and knees and stayed there and was sick, a little, onto the sand, which took that too.

He gave her the flask. She drank. Low water had been and gone; the flood would be in the channels inside the hour.

"You knew it was there," she said.

"I did."

"You could have said. Jess, there's a quick east of the channel, keep north."

"I could."

"Why didn't you?"

He took the flask back and screwed the cup on and took his time over it.

"What did it feel like," he said, "before it took you?"

She opened her mouth to say that it had not felt like anything, and shut it again. She looked at the place. The surface had already closed over the holes her legs had made. There was a slick, that was all, and when she put her hand flat on the firm ground beside it a wobble ran out across the grey like the skin on hot milk when the pan is moved.

"Soft," she said. "Then springy. Like it was breathing." She looked down at her legs, grey to the knee and drying pale. "My feet knew. I didn't listen to them."

"If I'd told you," Tom said, "would you have listened to me?"

She did not answer. He had not expected her to. The question was for a September some years off. She could carry it until then.

---

They marked the line on the way back with laurel. Tom cut it every year from the hedge behind the chapel, branches the length of a man's arm, and they lived in a bundle in the van and smelled of the van. Jess pushed them in at forty-pace intervals from the firm ground west of the quick, down the bank of the Kell, across at the shallows where she had crossed, and on over the hard ribbed sand towards Wrayholme. Each one she pushed in to half its length, and leaned her weight on, and looked back along to the last, and then on to the one before that, until there was a row of dark green sticks across a mile and a half of grey, bending a little in the wind, all in line.

Tom did not touch them. He walked behind her and watched the sky to the west, where the cloud was coming in low over the estuary, and twice he put a hand flat against his breastbone and held it there for a step or two and took it away again. If she saw, she did not say.

A mile out from Wrayholme, with the last of the laurel in her hand, she asked him the thing nobody in the village asked him.

"How many times have you been in?"

"Which time do you want?"

"The first."

He walked on for a while. The flats were drying behind them in long pale tongues and the gulls had gone off them to the tideline.

"Nineteen sixty-one," he said. "I was fourteen. East of the Kell, where you were, near enough, only the Kell was a mile west of where it is now. To the chest. Four hours. My father dug me out with his hands and a coal shovel off the cart, and the flood was over his knees by the finish." He set the left foot down flat, the way he did. "Couldn't feel this after. Still can't."

"So that's how you know."

"No," Tom said. "That's how I know I don't."

She pushed the last laurel in. She leaned on it. She looked back along the line, and it ran straight.

His father had gone out on the sands eight years after that, in fog, for a man whose car had stuck on the old cockle track, and had not come back. Everybody in Wrayholme knew that as well. Tom did not say it, and Jess did not ask, and the line of laurel stood across the bay behind them both.

At the slipway she turned to look back, and the first of the flood was already in the channels, running in silver lines over the flats faster than a person could walk.

"Saturday," she said.

"Saturday."

---

On Saturday it was Saturday.

Three hundred and twelve people in walking boots they would ruin and shorts they had not worn since school stood at the foot of the slipway at Wrayholme at half past ten, and the Trust's chairman read the safety notice through a loudhailer, and Jess Hodgkinson walked out in front of them with the staff. Tom took his place at the back, behind a family with a Labrador and a man pushing a bicycle he had been told twice he would have to carry.

At the Kell she stopped.

The column bunched up behind her and fell quiet in the way crowds do when they do not know why they have stopped. The channel had moved again. Not much, but enough: the shallows gone deep and narrow where she had crossed, the river fast and brown and turning on itself. Thursday's laurels stood in the water, three of them, leaning hard downstream with the current piling against them, marking a crossing that was no longer there.

Jess stood on the bank and looked at the water for a long time. Then she walked upstream, slowly, a quarter of a mile, with three hundred and twelve people walking after her. She stopped where the water ran wide and shallow over ribs of sand. She put her foot in, and then the staff, and then the other foot, and crossed, and did not look back until she was over.

East of the Kell she went north, a long way north, further than Tom's old line and further than any line she could have drawn on the screen, with three hundred and twelve people strung out behind her in a column half a mile long. She walked slowly. She walked the way a person walks on ice, with the weight held back over the heel until the foot has said what it has to say. Twice she stopped and stood still, and the column stopped behind her, and she put the staff in ahead and leaned, and listened through it with her hands, and then went on a little to the left. Nobody behind her knew why. The man with the bicycle said something about the time, and was not answered.

Tom came last. He did not cross where the column crossed, not at first. He had been pulling up Thursday's sticks since the first of them, a mile out, each one as he came to it, the line that had been right all the way to the river. At the Kell he went down to where it stopped being right and waded in to the knee, and pulled the first laurel out of the riverbed, and then the second, and then the third, against the current, one hand on each. Then he went upstream after the walkers and crossed where Jess had crossed. He carried the laurels in a bundle under his arm. By the time he reached the last of them, on the far bank, short of the quick, he had every one, and his arms were full of leaves.

THE END

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