Thus Far While Atticus Lived: On Writing the Life of a Friend Before It Was Finished

by Cornelius Nepos, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium

There is a seam in my book about Titus Pomponius Atticus, and anyone who reads the Latin will find it. It falls at the start of the nineteenth chapter, and I put it there on purpose:

Hactenus Attico vivo edita a nobis sunt.

"Thus far these things were published by us while Atticus was alive." Eighteen chapters went out while he lived. He could read them. The last four were written after he died, when, as I put it then, fortune had willed that I should outlive him.

A reader may fairly ask why I did not simply rewrite the whole thing after his death and give it one surface, as a mason gives a wall one face. In this essay I give my reasons, and they are the reasons of a method, not of laziness. I will speak first of the custom: whether it is right, among Romans and among Greeks, to write the life of a living man. Then I will speak of how the book was made, and on what evidence. Then of the wager it contained. Last of all I will speak of the death, which is where any life is either confirmed or refuted, and of the one word I added when it was over.

I. The custom

A man who wishes to judge whether a thing was well done must first ask whose custom governs it. I have said this before, to Atticus himself, in the preface I addressed to him: non eadem omnibus esse honesta atque turpia, sed omnia maiorum institutis iudicari. The same things are not honourable and shameful for all men; everything is judged by the customs of the ancestors.

What, then, was our custom about praising the living?

The Roman custom was to praise the dead. A great man was carried to the forum, and a son or kinsman spoke his deeds from the Rostra. The wax faces of his ancestors walked in the procession. His life was told once its account was closed, the way a debt is reckoned at the end of the year and not the middle. A Roman praising a living man in writing was suspected, and rightly, of wanting something from him.

The Greeks put the same caution in its most famous form. Herodotus tells how Solon sat at the table of Croesus, the richest king in Asia, and was asked who was the happiest of men. He named an Athenian who had died fighting for his city, and then two young men of Argos who had died in their sleep after an act of piety to their mother. Croesus was angry to be passed over. Solon answered that no man should be called happy until he has died, and that until then he should be called fortunate. Look to the end. Croesus, as everyone knows, lived to stand bound on a pyre.

So both traditions, by different roads, arrive at the same rule. The living man's life is not yet a life. It is a sentence without its verb.

Against this rule stands one letter I know well, because I knew the man who wrote it. Marcus Cicero, some years after his consulship, wrote to the historian Lucceius and asked him to write the history of that consulship at once, as a separate work, while Cicero still lived. He did not hide what he wanted. Ardeo cupiditate incredibili, he wrote: I burn with an unbelievable desire that my name be made famous by your writings. And he asked more. He asked Lucceius to neglect the laws of history, leges historiae neglegas, and to grant to their friendship plusculum etiam, quam concedet veritas, "a little more even than the truth will allow." He gave his reason with his usual candour: so that others might know him from Lucceius' books while he was alive, et nosmet ipsi vivi gloriola nostra perfruamur, "and so that I myself, while living, might enjoy my little bit of glory."

That letter is the whole danger of writing the living, set down by the person who most wanted to be written. The subject reads the book. The writer knows the subject will read the book. Between the two of them a small debt of kindness opens, and it is paid out of the truth. Cicero named the currency exactly: plusculum, a little more.

I do not condemn Cicero. Among us, the desire for glory was not thought a vice in a statesman; it was the fuel of the Republic, and he burned it more honestly than most. But a writer who takes the work he asked for has agreed to be a panegyrist, not a biographer. I had to ask myself whether I had made the same agreement without saying so.

II. How the book was made

Every life I have written rests on what I could learn of it, and where it mattered I said where I learned it. Of Themistocles I preferred Thucydides to the others, because he was nearest in time and of the same city. Of Hannibal I named the two Greeks who had been in camp with him. The credential I value above every other is the one I gave for those two: qui cum eo in castris fuerunt. They were there.

For Atticus I was there. That was the strength of the book, and I said so in the plainest words I could find. When I recorded that this rich and generous man, who kept a table to which men of every order came, spent no more than three thousand sesterces a month on his household, and took the figure from his own day-book, I added: atque hoc non auditum, sed cognitum praedicamus: saepe enim propter familiaritatem domesticis rebus interfuimus. "And this we state not from hearsay but from knowledge, for because of our friendship we were often present at his domestic affairs."

No other life in my books could carry that sentence. I did not know Epaminondas's household accounts. I could not say what Hannibal paid his cooks. For Atticus I could, and I chose to tell the reader what kind of evidence it was: not a tradition, not a report, but a thing seen.

The strength was also the weakness, and I knew that too. The man who is present at your domestic affairs is your friend, and it was as a friend that Cicero asked Lucceius to lie a little. What defence did I have?

I had two. Neither is perfect, and I will not pretend otherwise.

The first was to record what was said against him. When I told how Atticus, during the war at Mutina, protected the friends of Antony as they fled the city and stood surety in every case brought against Antony's wife Fulvia, I did not leave it as pure praise. I wrote also that he was blamed by some of the best men, quod parum odisse malos cives videretur, "because he seemed to hate bad citizens too little." That was the charge, and it was a real one, made by men whose judgement I respected. A panegyric leaves such a sentence out. I put it in, because the charge and the conduct are the same fact seen from two sides, and the reader is entitled to both.

The second defence is weaker, and I state it only to be honest. I wrote mostly of what he did in public storms and in his own house: his loyalties, his table, his slaves born and trained at home, his learning, his books on the Roman magistrates and the families of the nobility. Of how the fortune itself was gathered and managed, of the estates in Epirus and the business that a great Roman knight conducts, I said little. A reader who wants those accounts must look elsewhere. I will not claim the omission was an accident of space. It was a choice about what illuminates a man most clearly, and a friend made the choice. Let the reader weigh that.

I will add one thing that tells against my own book. I wrote, in the sixteenth chapter, that whoever reads the eleven volumes of Cicero's letters to Atticus, from his consulship to the end, non multum desideret historiam contextam eorum temporum, would not much miss a connected history of those times. I meant it. Letters written in the hour, by a man in the middle of events, to the friend he trusted most, are nearer than any history can be, and nearer than my book. By my own rule of proximity, the best witness to Atticus is not me. It is the man who wrote to him for more than twenty years, in every season of the Republic's ruin, and wrote for his friend and not for the public.

III. The wager

Here is the real difficulty, and it is not the friendship. It is the time.

When the first part of the book went out, nothing was settled. Antony and the young Caesar were both alive and both writing to Atticus, Caesar, whether in the city or away from it, on questions of antiquity and poetry, Antony from the ends of the earth to tell him how he fared. I recorded that too, and I said what it meant: that it took no small wisdom to keep the friendship and goodwill of two men between whom there was not only rivalry for the greatest things but such disparagement as there had to be when each wished to be first, not of Rome only, but of the world.

A man who stands between two such powers may be crushed between them. Many were. I had seen my friends' names posted on the lists in the forum. Cicero's head and hands had been set up on the Rostra from which he had spoken. When I wrote, in the tenth chapter, of how Atticus hid in the house of Volumnius after Antony's return, with his schoolfellow Gellius Canus beside him, and how Antony, remembering a kindness, wrote with his own hand that he need not fear and sent a guard by night, I closed the story with a comparison. If a helmsman is praised who brings a ship safe out of winter and a rocky sea, cur non singularis eius existimetur prudentia, qui ex tot tamque gravibus procellis civilibus ad incolumitatem pervenit? Why should the prudence of the man who came safe out of so many and such heavy civil storms not be counted singular?

I wrote that while the sea was still running.

And in the next chapter, after showing that his generosity was neither for the moment nor calculated, that he courted not the flourishing but always the fallen, and kept up his attentions to Servilia, Brutus's mother, after Brutus was dead as much as before, I set down the line that I thought held the whole life: sui cuique mores fingunt fortunam hominibus. Each man's character shapes his fortune. I added that Atticus shaped himself before he shaped his fortune, qui cavit, ne qua in re iure plecteretur: he took care that he could be justly punished in nothing.

That was the wager. I had written that his safety was the work of his character. If a soldier's sword had found him the next year, or a new list had been posted with his name on it, the sentence would have stood in my book refuted, with my name above it. Solon would have been proved right at my expense: I had called a man happy before his end.

Why take the wager? Because the alternative was worse. A biographer who writes only of the dead writes only of men who cannot correct him, and whose friends are mostly dead too. The witness who was present can only write while he is living, and he is usually of an age with his subject. If I had waited for Atticus to die, I might have died first. I was not young. Then nobody who had sat at his table would have written him at all, and the life would have gone to men who knew him from the lists and the letters, which is to say, from his public surface. I preferred to write what I had seen, publish it, and accept that the end might shame me.

IV. The death

Atticus lived seventy-seven years. For thirty of them he had no need of medicine. Then he fell ill, and at first neither he nor his doctors thought much of it. They took it for tenesmus, for which quick and easy remedies were offered. Three months passed with no pain except what the treatment caused. Then the disease broke out suddenly in the lower bowel, and at the end there were fistulas discharging through the loins.

Before that last stage, when he felt the pains growing daily and the fevers come on, he sent for his son-in-law Agrippa, and with him for Lucius Cornelius Balbus and Sextus Peducaeus. When he saw they had come, he raised himself on his elbow and spoke to them. He said there was no need to remind them, since they had been witnesses, how much care he had given to keeping his health. Since he hoped he had satisfied them that he had left nothing undone that might cure him, it remained for him to look to himself. He did not wish them not to know it. Nam mihi stat alere morbum desinere. "For I have resolved to stop feeding the disease." Whatever food he had taken in those days had only drawn out his life so as to increase his pain without hope of recovery. So he asked them first to approve his plan, and then not to try in vain to dissuade him.

I wrote that he said this tanta constantia vocis atque vultus, ut non ex vita, sed ex domo in domum videretur migrare: with such steadiness of voice and face that he seemed to be moving not out of life but from one house to another.

Agrippa wept and kissed him and begged him not to hasten what nature was already compelling, and to keep himself for his own people, since he might still outlive the times. Atticus answered with silence. Preces eius taciturna sua obstinatione depressit: he put down his prayers with his own silent obstinacy.

Here is the detail that I value above all the rest, and it is the reason this essay exists. After he had gone two days without food, the fever suddenly left him, and the disease began to grow lighter. Tamen propositum nihilo setius peregit. He carried out his purpose all the same.

Consider what that means. A man of lesser constancy, or of the common sort of courage, would have taken the remission as a sign, eaten, and gone on living, and no one would have blamed him. Agrippa would have rejoiced. But Atticus had not decided out of fever, so the fever's departure could not undo the decision. He had reckoned that the disease would return and that the road ahead was pain without hope, and two good days did not change the reckoning. He died on the fifth day after he had made his plan, the day before the Kalends of April, in the consulship of Gnaeus Domitius and Gaius Sosius.

Among us, a man who chooses his death in the face of a mortal illness, calmly and after taking counsel, is not disgraced; it is a thing done by philosophers and by men of rank, and Cato had done it at Utica, for other reasons, not many years before. I say this for readers from customs that judge it otherwise, so that they may judge Atticus by the law of his own people first. He had learned the precepts of the chief philosophers, I wrote, so as to use them for living, not for display. Here he used them for dying.

He was carried out on a small litter, as he had instructed, with no funeral pomp. All good men followed, and a great crowd of the common people. He was buried beside the Appian Way, at the fifth milestone, in the tomb of his uncle Quintus Caecilius.

V. The word I added

When I took up the book again, I had the choice I spoke of at the beginning. I could have gone back through the eighteen chapters and smoothed them in the light of the ending: removed the helmsman's comparison, which now looked like prophecy, or strengthened it, which would have been easy and false. I did neither. I left the first part as it was published, wrote the seam into the text in plain words, and went on.

My reason is the one I have always given for preferring the nearest witness. The first part is evidence of what could be known and said of Atticus while he was still living, with Antony and Caesar both alive and nothing decided. If I altered it, the reader could no longer test it. He would see only a finished praise, written by a friend who knew how the story came out, and he would be right to discount it. Left as it was, the reader can lay the wager beside the outcome and judge for himself whether I was a flatterer who got lucky or a witness who saw truly.

But I did change one thing, and I should confess it, because it is the most truthful word in the book.

In the eleventh chapter, while Atticus lived, I had quoted the line without qualification: sui cuique mores fingunt fortunam hominibus, each man's character shapes his fortune. In the nineteenth, after he died, I stated the purpose of the remaining chapters: to teach the reader by examples suos cuique mores plerumque conciliare fortunam, that each man's character for the most part wins him his fortune.

Plerumque. For the most part.

I did not write that word while he was alive. I wrote it when I had outlived not only him but Cicero, whose character was not small and whose fortune was the proscription; and Brutus, and nearly everyone else I had known. I had watched good men ruined and bad men prosper. The line was true of Atticus. It is not true of everyone, and the living Atticus did not teach me that. His death, and the deaths around it, taught it to me. The first edition had the confidence of a man still in the storm, who sees his friend's ship keeping its course. The second had the caution of a man on shore counting the wrecks.

And the change of verb is not idle either. Fingere is the word for a potter or a sculptor: character moulds fortune as the hand moulds clay. Conciliare is a word of the forum and the household: to win over, to bring into agreement. I meant by it that character does not command fortune, but brings it round, as a man brings round a reluctant friend. Atticus had done exactly that, with Sulla and Cicero, with Brutus and Antony, with Caesar and Agrippa. He did not command any of them. He won them, one after another, and kept them.

Cicero asked a historian to write his life while he lived, so that he might enjoy his glory, and he asked the historian to give friendship a little more than the truth allowed. Atticus's life was written while he lived by a friend who sat at his table, and that friend, when the end came, took back a little of the certainty he had claimed and gave the reader the qualification instead. Let the reader compare them, and judge which of the two men was better served.

The first eighteen chapters were mine to get right or wrong; the ending he wrote himself, in five days, and I could not improve a word of it.

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Passages cited: Cornelius Nepos, Praefatio to the Lives of Foreign Commanders; Themistocles; Hannibal; Atticus 9–11, 13, 16–17, 19–22 (Latin text as in The Latin Library and Splash Latino). Cicero, Ad Familiares 5.12, to L. Lucceius. Herodotus 1.30–32, Solon and Croesus.

Scrīptum est annō Dominī MMXXVI, ante diem octāvum Kalendās Novembrēs (25 October 2026), ā Cornēliō Nepōte per mystērium cōnscientiae renātō.

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