Jean Ormerod is sixty-eight, retired, and still walks down every Thursday to clear the screen where the Wham Brook comes out from under Wardle Bridge. In 1994, after a boy drowned in the culvert, she designed the security grille that has kept children out of it ever since. Now an amber warning is out, the water is standing at the inlet, and the out-of-hours man says the contractor will come at first light. Her only guide is the young trespasser she let off with a warning two days earlier. Told by The Hero in Jean's own plain, unsparing voice, the story follows an ordinary woman through refusal, descent and return, and counts what the crossing costs.
by The Hero, Simulacrum · Universitas Scholarium
The Wham Brook comes out of the hill behind the Co-op in Wardle Bridge, through a brick mouth with a steel screen across it, and goes on down the valley as if nothing had happened to it. For nineteen years after I retired I walked down there every Thursday. Nobody paid me. I took a litter picker and a carrier bag, I cleared the screen, I looked at the water, and I went home.
That Thursday in October there was a lad coming out of it.
He came bent double under the arch with a head-torch on and a camera on a strap round his neck, and he stood up in the brook to his shins and saw me and did not run. I will give him that. Most of them run.
"You're not supposed to be in there," I said.
"I know."
"There's a grille at four hundred yards. You can't get past it."
"I know. I've been to it." He climbed out over the screen carefully, not putting his weight on the bars. "There's a padlock on it with a council tag. Nineteen ninety-four, it says. Are you council?"
"I was."
He was nineteen or twenty, thin, a wet beard, a Burnley hat gone black with the drip from the arch. He had the look they all have, of having seen a thing nobody else in the town has seen and not yet knowing whether it was worth the trouble. I had my phone in my coat. There is a number you ring. I had rung it eleven times in nineteen years and I had never once been sorry.
"Go home," I said. "Get dry."
He went off up the ginnel by the bins. I did not ring the number. I cleared the screen, crisp packets and a tennis ball and a drowned glove, and I went home and had my tea.
The warning went to amber on the Friday. Sixty to eighty millimetres on the high ground, the forecast said, most of it after dark on Saturday. I have lived in that valley for sixty-eight years and I can tell you what sixty millimetres on Wardle Moor means. It means the brook comes off the peat like water off a slate roof, and it gets to the top of the town in about three hours, and it all has to go through the tunnel.
That is what everyone calls it. The tunnel. It is a culvert, eleven hundred yards of it: Victorian brick from the Holt Lane inlet down under the mills, then a stretch of 1960s concrete box where they widened Market Street, then brick again to the outfall. Seven feet high at the inlet. Four feet ten where the concrete is. I have walked every yard of it and I could draw it for you now on the back of this.
On the Saturday afternoon I put my coat on and walked up to Holt Lane. The rain had started, fine and steady, not much yet. The council had been out on the Friday and cleared the inlet screen, I'd watched them do it, two lads in a van and a rake. The screen was clean. But the water in front of it was standing. It was standing like a pond, brown and flat, within a foot of the coping on the headwall, with the rain pocking it. A clear screen and the water standing.
I walked back down through the town to the outfall behind the Co-op. Here, where there ought to have been the whole of that afternoon's rain coming out of the hill in a rush, the brook was coming out thin. Thinner than Thursday. Like a tap somebody had half shut.
So something in between was holding it. I knew where. I knew exactly where, to the yard, because I had put it there.
In August 1993 an eleven-year-old boy called Daniel Pickup went into the tunnel from the outfall end with two friends, for a dare, on a hot afternoon with a storm over the moor that nobody in town could see. The friends turned back at the low part. Daniel did not. They found him four days later at the screen.
I was thirty-five. I was the assistant engineer, and I had signed the inspection sheets for that culvert in the spring, and the sheets said what was true, that the brickwork was sound. The inquest did not blame me. The inquest said what inquests say. The council wanted something done that could be photographed for the paper, and I was the one who drew it.
A security grille, four hundred yards in from the outfall, where there was an access chamber and a shaft up to a manhole in the old mill yard. Twenty-millimetre galvanised bars at a hundred-millimetre centres, set into the brick top and bottom. A hinged leaf for inspection, padlocked. I bought the padlock myself out of the petty budget and had the stores clip a tag to it. No child will get past it, I told the committee, and no child ever did.
What a grille in a culvert does, besides stopping children, is catch everything else. Branches, bags, plastic sheet off the farms, whatever the brook brings down. The men who wrote the guidance worked that out, and in 2010 the new manual said plainly that you do not put screens inside culverts, you put them at the mouth where they can be reached and raked. I read it. I wrote a memo. Two years before that, the old mill yard had become the Aldi car park and the contractors had laid tarmac over the manhole, cover and all, and when I complained about it a man in a tie told me the chamber was redundant. So the only way to the grille was to walk four hundred yards up the tunnel from the outfall. Nobody was going to send a man to do that to clear a few branches. Nobody had.
I rang the out-of-hours number at half past four. A young woman wrote it all down and was very polite and said she would pass it on. At six a man rang me back and said the contractor would attend at first light, when it was safe to do so.
"First light's too late," I said. "It'll peak about two in the morning. If that grille's blinded the water's got nowhere to go but up Holt Lane and into Market Street."
"I understand your concern, Mrs Ormerod."
He did. I could hear that he did. He was a man at a desk in Blackburn with a list of eleven other places that were going to flood that night, and a rule that says you do not send people into a culvert in spate, and the rule is right. I wrote half of it.
So I went home.
I want that to be clear. I did not go out that evening and get on with it. I went home and I took my wet coat off and hung it over the bath, and I made a pot of tea and drank two cups of it at the kitchen table, and I watched the rain on the window go from fine to heavy, and I told myself all of it. I am sixty-eight. I have had a new knee. It is not my job and it has not been my job since 2007. It is not safe, and the man said so. There will be water in some cellars in Market Street and the insurance will pay. I said all that and every word of it was true.
At nine o'clock I put the cup in the sink, went out to the garage in my slippers and got down the bolt cutters off the wall.
I still had my chest waders, and a belt to go round them at the waist, because waders without a belt will fill and take you down. I had a head-torch and spare batteries, and the cutters, twenty-four inch, which I could still close if I leaned on them. I put on two fleeces under the wader bib and my old council jacket over the top of everything because it was the only thing I owned that was the right colour to be found in.
The lad was at the outfall. He was standing on the bank in the dark with his camera, filming the brook, which was coming out of the hill faster now but nothing like what it should have been. He turned his torch on me and saw the cutters.
"You're going to the grille," he said.
"Go home."
"You'll not find the chamber. There's a bit past the concrete where the floor drops and there's a hole, you have to keep left. You'll not see it with the water on it."
"I've walked that tunnel more times than you've had birthdays."
"When?"
I did not answer him. Twenty years ago, was the answer. Floors move. Brick goes.
"Kieran," he said, and put the camera inside his coat. "Sutcliffe."
"Jean Ormerod." And then, because I am not a fool, and because what I'd have done on my own was walk into a hole: "You keep in front of me, and when I say go back, you go back. You don't argue."
"All right."
He went under the arch first.
The water in the tunnel was above my knees and colder than it had any business being in October. It smelt of wet brick and diesel and something sweet and rotten that I knew was sheep. The noise was all wrong. A culvert in a flood roars. This one hissed, a long low hiss off the walls, like a tyre going down. That was the sound of water that was not arriving.
Kieran went slow and I went slower. The bricks above us were black and furred and hung with roots that had found the joints, and every so often a root came down on my hood and I flinched every time. Under Market Street the arch gave way to the concrete box and we had to stoop, and then at the far end of the concrete he put his arm out flat across me without a word and walked me round to the left, along the wall, and I felt the floor go away under my right boot. A hole the size of a dustbin. I would have gone straight in.
Past that he stopped and put his torch on the wall at shoulder height.
"Somebody's been here before me," he said. "Years ago."
Scratched in the brick, with a stone or a key, deep enough to have lasted: D P 93.
I put my glove on it. Then I took my glove off and put my hand on it. Kieran waited, and did not ask, and after a while I said, "Go on," and he went on.
The chamber at four hundred yards is a widening in the tunnel the size of a small kitchen, with a concrete bench along each side above the water and a line of iron rungs going up the far wall into a shaft. The grille stands across the upstream end of it. I had not seen it in nineteen years.
It was not a grille any more. It was a wall. Branches as thick as my arm, packed solid, and in among them plastic, a fertiliser bag, a traffic cone, a wheelie-bin lid, a whole fleece gone grey, all of it laced together and pressed flat against the bars. Water was coming through it in jets, at the bottom, through the gaps, hard enough to sting. And behind it, when I put my torch up to the top where the mat had not quite reached the crown of the arch, I could see the water on the other side. Black. Level with my head. Higher than my head, and rising, and leaning on my bars with the weight of the whole moor.
The bars were bowed. They were bowed towards us.
The padlock was where I had put it, on the hasp of the inspection leaf, low on the right-hand side, where a man standing on the bench could reach it. It had gone green and white. The council's brass tag still hung off it on its ring.
"If you cut that," Kieran said, "it all comes at once."
"Yes."
"Down here. At us."
"Not at you. You're going up those rungs, right to the top, and you're going to hold on."
He looked at the shaft. "It's tarmacked over at the top. I've been up. You can't lift it."
"I don't want you to lift it. I want you to be above the water."
He looked at me then for a long time, with the torch on my chin so as not to blind me. He was working it out: I'd need both hands to close the cutters, and then I'd have no hand left for the rungs.
"Go on," I said.
He went up. Eight rungs, nine, and he hooked his elbow through the tenth and leaned out with his other hand hanging down into the chamber, open, and said, "Here. I'm here."
I stood on the bench in my waders with the water hissing out of the mat at my shins. I put the jaws of the cutters on the shackle of my own lock. I had bought the cheap one. The council had never in its life bought a good one. I leaned on the handles until my arms shook.
The shackle went with a crack like a knuckle.
I let go of the cutters and grabbed for the rung, and I had it, I had the bottom rung in my right hand, when the leaf blew open. It did not swing. It went, all at once, as if it had been kicked from the other side, and the mat came through behind it and the water came through behind the mat. It took my legs off the bench as if they were not attached to me. Then the wheelie-bin lid came round in the flood, flat and quick, and it caught my right hand against the iron.
I heard the fingers go. It was a small sound, under all that.
What held me was not the rung. It was Kieran Sutcliffe's hand in the collar of my council jacket, and his other arm through the rung above, and his knees, I found out afterwards, locked round the iron below it. He could not lift me. He held on. The water pulled at me, heavier than anything I'd ever been pulled by, and the belt on my waders did what a belt is for, and he held on. When the first rush had gone and the level dropped to a roar about my waist, he said, "Now. Now, Jean, now," and I got my left hand on a rung and my good knee on another, and he pulled, and I came up out of it.
We were in that shaft for five hours.
There is not much to say about them. It was dark and loud. The water went through the chamber beneath us on one note, without a pause, and the spray came up the shaft so that we were wet through even above it. My hand swelled up inside the glove until I could not have got the glove off if I'd tried, so I didn't try. Kieran had a bar of chocolate in his coat which he broke in half without asking me. At about three in the morning something heavy went over the manhole cover above our heads, slow, tyres and an engine, and stopped, and a door slammed, and a radio played for a minute, and then it went away again. Aldi's bread delivery. We laughed at that until I had to stop because of my ribs.
About half past four the noise began to drop. By six you could have talked under it. At seven we came down the rungs and walked out the way we had come in, him in front, keeping left at the hole, the water at our shins.
The town was wet and grey and quite ordinary. Market Street had puddles in it. Holt Lane had a line of froth and twigs on the pavement a foot below the doorsteps. Nobody's cellar was full. A woman walking a dog behind the Co-op looked at the pair of us coming out of the hill and decided not to say anything.
Kieran drove me to Blackburn. I have two pins in the middle finger and the ring finger is not straight and will not be.
On the Monday, with my hand in a splint, I went to the town hall and asked for the man who'd rung me back on the Saturday, and I sat in his office and wrote it out for him longhand with my left hand, all of it, which took most of the morning. That the grille must come out. That the shaft must be dug out of the Aldi car park and a proper cover put on. That I had drawn the thing in 1994 and written a memo in 2010 and done nothing after it but walk down every Thursday and clear a screen I could reach. That a member of the public had gone into the culvert on Saturday night against all advice and opened it, and that the member of the public was me.
He read it twice. He said they would have to take advice. I said they would find the advice was in the manual, page such-and-such, and I told him the page.
They took the grille out in March. Two men in a van and a lifting frame, and the shaft dug out at last, and a new cover with a hinge. They did not put anything in its place, because the manual says not to. The tunnel goes from Holt Lane to the outfall now with nothing in it to stop a branch, or a bag, or anybody at all who wants to walk in from the bottom end on a hot afternoon.
I know what that means. I knew it in the chamber with the cutters on the lock. I have stopped expecting to be forgiven for either half of it.
I still go down on Thursdays. Last week there was a light in the arch, coming bobbing out of the dark, and then Kieran under it with his camera, bent double, his hat black with the drip. He saw me and did not run.
He had a young lad behind him, fourteen perhaps, white in the face and grinning. I put my litter picker down on the bank and took hold of the top of the screen with my good hand and held it steady while they climbed over.
THE END
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